1st ultrasound scan (5.4 weeks)

Went to AMC for registration at 10.55am as scheduled and I was told I got to wait for another 1 1/2 hr before its my turn. This is the first time I've got to wait for that long at AMC. After that we went to clinic D to inform the nurse that appointment with Dr Lau will be delayed due to the wait.

We went for early lunch and continue to wait for our turn at AMC. And exactly about 1 1/2 hr time, my number is called. The sonographer try to do tummy scan to check and it seems to be quite a challenge as I guessed the baby is still very small and so they decide to do internal scan with a probe.

They found one sac with a baby and heartbeat and also another smaller one beside it but they can hardly see the baby and heartbeat. They took awhile to do the scan to make sure they don't see it wrongly. In the end they can only confirm 2 sacs and 1 baby and heartbeat found.

After that I went to Clinic D to find Dr Lau and he says the chances for the other sac to develop may be low but there might be surprises after that as baby may start to develop late. The sac with heartbeat is 12mm and the other one is 6mm. Baby is at about 2mm now. There is a difference and the other one seem to develop very slow. By right they are inserted at the same time so they should be the same size at the same stage.

He asked to go back for scan after 4 weeks and see how the babies develop.

Beta blood count result

Went back to KKHIVF at about 2 plus to collect my prescription and also my blood test result. When I received the result slip, I was a little puzzled by the figure. It shows 1662.6 iu/L. This was definitely a very high figure. I remembered during my first IVF, I don't get such high numbers. And so during my journey to meet my sister at AMK, I went back to my blog to check and true enough when I found out I am pregnant with Davian, my blood count is about 440 plus at this stage. Have read about high blood count, the possibility could be multiple pregnancy! OH NO!  I'm a little startled at this moment as a lot of things were running in my mind. What will be the consequences of having twins? Can I cope with twins pregnancy? Babies might need to deliver earlier and put in incubator for a period of time depending how early they came out. The cost of incubator and having twins at a go? Who is going to help me with twins and a boy? Haiz....too many worries suddenly. Though it seems I'm able to accept twins but just can't believe this might happen to me...hope my next visit to doctor, it will not show twins and somehow my symptom should be related to OHSS. And so I quickly send a message to hubby and he finds it is all fated and we got to accept. He always take things too easy and not thinking far enough. Hope everything goes smoothly for us.

Beta test at 19 dpt (2nd IVF)

Went early morning at 8.30am for the blood test. Went in to the procedure room and nurse asked to give mobile number and not sure what's wrong with me and suddenly I've forgotten my own number. Took me awhile to remember. Think my forgetfulness syndrome has kicked in.

After the blood test, I took a stroll around Novena and at the same time went to buy bread. When I reach home at about 9 plus to 10 and in the lift, I received a call. It's from KKHIVF, they have confirmed I'm pregnant. So I've got to go back to KKH to take supplement after 2pm.

13 DPT (OHSS)

My tummy has been feeling very bloated since 3 days ago. It's getting bigger and feeling very uncomfortable. It looks at if I'm 3 months pregnant. Even hubby also notice that. I read online that it could be due to ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome (OHSS). I always thought this would only happen during follicle stimulation but it does happens after ET as well. Especially if pregnant, symptoms may persist even longer. Was getting a bit worried and so decided to call KKHIVF to check and I was asked to go KKH O&G 24HRS clinic to check if I'm feeling very uncomfortable.

I was there and shortly attended by the nurse. I was asked to pass some urine incase the doctor needs to test my urine. At that moment, I don't feel any urine and so I drank two cups of water and passed out less than 20ml of urine in a bottle for doctor.

I was called in to see doctor not long after. Doctor asked a few questions such as "Am I married, what occupation, any child currently" etc...Am thinking is this related to my check. While she asked I did notice my urine sample and a test kit which looks like pregnancy test kit showing two lines. She could have tested me positive for pregnancy. After the interview, she announced that I am tested positive and I'm pregnant. Didn't had much surprises as I already know. After that she talks about my symptoms I am having currently. She says what I am having is OHSS and is normal during pregnancy due to stimulation of the ovarian. If I can still lie down on bed without pain and eat normally, there is no cause of concern. She even check my tummy and also my vagina to see if there is any discharge. She says everything is ok. There is nothing to be done to prevent this and this is part of the pregnancy symptoms. After listening to her, I feel I might have wasted my trip there. The consultation fees ends up to a $115.03 for nothing. The only news she confirmed is I'm pregnant....

Well ...trying hard to console myself at least there is nothing major to me.

Read online that some doctor recommend to drink electrolyte drink to drain of the excessive fluid and so I'm trying hopefully it helps.

12 DPT (2nd IVF)

Trying to convince myself once again and did another test since I have lots of pregnancy test strips to play around. This time round my urine is not so concentrated but the 2nd line still shows. I realised the line is not as dark as yesterday...not sure either. What you think?

Sunday it happened to be a friend's wedding. I'm contemplating to tell her a not as I decide not to disclose this news to anyone yet including my hubby till I went for blood test. But I'm feeling guilty for not checking with her in case she is superstitious type.  For Chinese, it is superstitious that there shouldn't be two celebration of happiness together. Read that the pregnant woman is fine but may not be good to the wedding couple, so I decide to tell hubby and get him to check with our friend just to respect her decision. Luckily she is not pantang type and I can go to her wedding as I wanted to share her happiness just like how much she has helped me that time during my wedding. Though I am not involved in her wedding but at least I can send my wishes to her on that day. Hubby is so happy and he volunteered to do all housework from now. Think its good to tell him now as I can avoid doing heavy chores and he can also be more understanding towards handling my boy.

I was quite excited for the wedding on Sun and tried dresses to see which I can still wear. To my surprise I looked like I'm 3 months pregnant. How not to disclose if I intend not to tell my girlfriend, guess when they see me they will also suspect lor. Don't know how come this time my tummy look so bloated than the first time I'm pregnant.

11 DPT (2nd IVF)

Tested early in the morning the moment I'm awake. This time round the line looks darker. I have read that It is not advisable to test within 7 days after transfer as the result of positive might be the trigger of the medication for ovulation. The best time to test is 12 - 14 days after. Any test between 7 - 11 days might falls into negative result but mine is still a positive so should be quite safe bah...

Below is a comparison of 10th and 11th day test

10 and 11 DPT

11 DPT

8 - 10 dpt (2nd IVF)

We had another family staycation, this time is at RWS for 3 days 2 nights. This is to celebrate hubby's post birthday and our wedding anniversary during November. Took this chance to relax myself and enjoy. Telling myself not to look too much into symptoms. We had a fun trip especially the second day at USS. It was a long day and we walk a lot under the hot sun. I felt my leg especially my thigh, the nerves is pulling. I am suspecting this could be one of the symptoms. Some mild cramps during the night as well and felt my tummy bloated and sore. The most obvious sign is my ear blocked. It happened to me during my 1st pregnancy too and I suspect I am BFP this time too.

I try as much as possible not to carry my son too much so as not to exert myself.

we reached home on 21 Oct around 3 plus to 4pm. Out of curiosity, I decide to pick up an HPT strip to test. I knew morning urine should be more accurate but I'm thinking that the clinic would also do urine test any time of the day so I just try. Anyway I'm ready for any failure, so be it...
Dipped the strip into a bottle of urine  and immediately saw one line only, I thought it will be a negative. Not long after, another faint line appear .... phew...its a faint positive. I was so delighted and started to pray thanks to God. I will continue to test tomorrow to see if the line is stronger.



10 DPT

6 Day Post Transfer (2nd IVF)

It's hard not to have negative thoughts...though I'm telling myself to take it easy but I can't. Other than some light twinges, not much major symptoms except for a strong pulling sensation which happened on 5dpt and it lasted for at least 2 minutes. Referred back to my previous post on day 5 and I have the same encounter but it lasted even longer. So not sure this is a good sign a not... =(

Today not much symptoms though except for sore stomach when I try to stretch myself and feeling lethargic which I believed its due to the medication I am inserting. Ever since I started on the progesterone medicine, I have been eating like nobody's business. Been feeling hungry, which I read is the side effect. Haiz...another mimic of pregnancy.

Well trying hard not to think too much of it and praying hard that my menses won't come which is due by next week and at least my hope is up. Read that there is no way for progesterone pills to delay menses so this could be my hint whether I'm successful this time.

Our family vacation is this coming Sunday, got to enjoy myself and not think too much and hope I get good news after I'm back.

Another good news in my family!

This morning received a good news. My sister whatsapp me telling me she tested positive! Wow, what a good news for her. So coincidentally I'm also trying for this month and if it happens I'm pregnant, both will be preggie sisters! But not sure if I'm so lucky a not.

But I'm already mentally prepared for the worst to come, so better not pin such high hope. Felt some twinges here and there in my stomach but I believed it is the side effect of the utrogestran.

2nd day post transfer (2nd IVF)

Today started to feel something in my stomach. Felt a bit tired and a little cramp.
But I'm thinking it shouldn't be so fast as usually 2nd day post transfer is the day blastocyst hatches out of shell and not attached to lining yet.

Since the first day of transfer, I have been feeling very hungry and appetite improved a lot. Not sure is it myself or its part of the symptoms...so strange. Since then, I have been craving for many things to eat....oh no I don't want to be fat if this time is not a successful one... =(


Hope this is still a good sign after all.

Embryo Transfer (2nd IVF)

Today is the day! Embryo transfer...

Things doesn't go smoothly  as planned at first as we intended to put Davian to school before we go for our appointment at 7.30am. I even set the alarm clock at 6am so we can get out of the house on time. We did follow as planned but when we reached school at 6.55am, there is not a single soul of people in the school. The school gate is locked. So I thought we wait for another 5 minutes as the school supposed to opened at 7am. We waited patiently in the car and time has passed about 10 minutes, still not a single soul...we are getting frustrated now...and we decide to move out from the gantry so we will not be charged for the entrance.

We chose to wait for awhile more outside the building but 20 minutes has passed and not even a single teachers turned up. It was already very late so I instruct DH to move on and we got to bring ah boy along...I didn't even prepare any appropriate clothing for him but luckily there is long sleeves in the bag for school but shoes DH has forgotten in the school from the previous day.

I told DH to complain to the head curriculum or principle when he sees them on Monday. Such things shouldn't be tolerated as it disrupted our plan.

We just go ahead as scheduled for the procedure with the naughty one.

When we reached, my stomach was almost filled with water and was trying to endure. The nurse called my number not long after and we proceed with the necessary papers for this procedure. I even checked with the nurse if we could bring kid into the procedure room and she says its ok to bring. Phew...I'm glad he is allowed to enter.

About 1 hr 15 mins later, my name was called to go into the procedure room. Davian started to throw tantrum and making a lot of noise. He wanted me to carry him but there is nothing I could do.

Not long after, Dr Lau came in and he heard how badly ah boy is crying and he asked what happened to him. When I told him he is just throwing tantrum, he gave a very concerning look. This is what I liked about him, he is always so caring.

He told me a good news, that I have 6 embryos together. I was shocked when he told me as I thought the lesser ovum retrieved, means lesser chance of successful embryos. All are of almost good grads. I even heard him say that I'm young so I can have so many good embryos. I was thinking, 2 years ago I was even younger but how come I only have 2?

He suggested that I put in one embryo since I have so many to play with. I was puzzled when he told me this. After that he explained clearly to me. He intend to freeze 2 embryos and further fertilized the rest of the four till day 5 until blastocyst stage and select the best to put in. The chances of day 5 (1 embryo) and day 3 (2 embryos) is the same which is 30%. The only consideration is whether we can accept twins. If we can, he will go ahead with 2 embryos. He mentioned 1st time he don't want to risk till day 5 is because we only have 2 embryos. We have considered for a while and Dr Lau has given us ample time to consider too without rushing us. I find him very professional. While we are considering, he was helping us to handle Davian and surprisingly he is quiet on his arm.

After some time, dear decided to go ahead with 2 embryos and he said if its going to be twins it will be fated. And so Dr Lau went ahead with the procedure.

My little one started crying loudly again when he was handed over to DH...Oh gosh...all the nurses came in to look at him and even laugh at him... =/

Shortly, 2 embryos were in.

Nurse explained to me that they managed to retrieved 9 embryos, 7 fertilized but only 6 are successful and all are of grad four except for one grad 3.

Hope this time I can be at luck too!

Egg Retrival (2nd IVF)

Went to the clinic early in the morning at 8am after we send Davian to school. Our appointment as scheduled, the nurse was quite prompt and asked to proceed with the necessary before I could start.

DH suppose to take leave to accompany me as before but...he says he has a meeting today and he will leave after he settled his part. Was quite piss with  his attitude, taking things for granted this time. Thinking the whole process should be easy on me and I can managed myself.

I have been feeling emotional during the past few days while he is overseas, as I see most couple come together for the treatment whereas me either alone or with my boy and parent. The main support is not there with me to go through this phase.

This time round when he is back to SG, he still continue to give the excuse of not accompanying me and be there as my support.

I was told to change to operating robe and wait patiently at the waiting area to be called. The aesthetic doctor explained everything to me and get me to sign the form. Not long after I was asked to enter the theatre. The whole place looked familiar to me as this was not my first. Dr Lau came in shortly and asked how is my stomach and I replied him that I am doing good. The aesthetic doc gave me the sedative shortly and I feel my vision getting slightly blurred and things started to shift from my vision. If I remembered correctly, previously I was totally knocked out after the jab but this time round I am semi awake and I can still hear the surrounding.

After not long, I hear Dr Lau says total there is 8. Which means total of 8 follicles retrieved I guess. I was a little disappointed as it is actually lesser than before which I have 12. Chances of having good follicles definitely lessen.

I can feel I am pushed to one corner which I believed is the resting lounge to rest. The nurse tried to wake me up and hear my response. Shortly she asked me to wake up and drink a cup of milo. In my heart, all took place so shortly and I'm afraid DH is not ready to fetch me so I hesitate awhile. But they seem so enthusiastic to get me out of bed, so I abide to their instruction to get change and wait at the waiting area for DH. I was done at about 10.30am. So I waited...tick tock, tick tock and almost 1 1/2 hr has passed. He is still not here. Nurse knowing that DH is not here so she asked me to wait outside of the theatre instead. I was getting very sad and emotional at this moment. So I message him again and asked if he is done. He says he is done with the early meeting and he need to go back in the afternoon. I was so angry as he told me he will be taking half day leave today.After that he gave me a call asking if he should come to the clinic to fetch me or I can go down meet him. I told him I am still feeling abit dizzy and cramp. I was very sad and my tears keep rolling...I feel he has been irresponsible and taking things for granted. I am doing this for him and now he seem to push everything to me. Soon after I told him to come find me, I dropped the call.

I didn't continue to wait in the clinic and went out to wait instead as it was very cold in there and I felt so hungry. I waited at the taxi stand and he came after about 30 mins. He started to feel sorry and I rejected his offer to help me.

I asked him to drop me off when we reach home and I will go buy food myself. After that he told me he is not going back to office already. Which means sometimes he can still make the decision but he prefer not to and follows whatever is planned. This is what I hate about him and this shows work is more important than his family.

I told him I have a gut feeling this time I may not be so lucky, and I will not do the procedure again no matter what the result is. The feeling of neglectant is so awful and I feel I am doing all this just for my self and I am fighting hard alone. Though the first time is a smooth process but this time is different especially I have a son who needs my attention and care plus he is not here with me to share the burden.

3rd IVF review

Went for another review and follicle has slightly grown in size. I need to continue with both jabs for another 4 days and Tuesday night is the day to go 24hrs KKH clinic for Pregnly jab at 10.30pm for inducing ovulation. Thursday is the day for retrieval of egg and it is also the start of my hospitalization leave.

2nd review since last Saturday.

Luckily I have my parents to help as it was a school holiday for Davian and coincidentally I have to go for review. Hubby is not around so they followed me to the clinic and help watched over my DS when I'm having my review. Thank God they are always here for me.

My follicles are 5 on each side and the result is pretty good as the biggest is about 13.

I was told to go back to inject with a dose of Gonal and I am prescribed with orgalutran for tomorrow.

But...I was too careless and mistakenly injected the orgalutran again where I am suppose to have Gonal jab. I called KKHIVF immediately and luckily someone picked up my call and the nurse can hear me sound very panicky. I told her what had happened and she help me consult Dr Lau. Not long after, she gave me a rang and luckily Dr Lau says its ok if I have injected the wrong one. Orgalutran is a blocker and preventing the LH from raising so it will not change any process even though I have injected twice for a day. I was instructed to continue injecting with Gonal 225 dose and remembering not to double the dose. I did as was told and suppose to go back tomorrow for review. And after that I need to purchase for another dose of Orgalutran tomorrow again.

Hope everything goes well for me and not Dr trying to console me.

Praying hard for my No. 2

Looking back the 1st IVF I have gone through, it was very emotional and still can't believe I  have successfully given birth to a son after that!

I am really thankful  to God whom I believe have granted my wish and given me a beautiful son.

This time round, I am hoping he can grant me another wish to have a companion for my son and that is my last wish I will ask from him.

I will definitely fulfill my promise to go back to him and give thanks for the second time.

1st day of treatment

It was a Saturday morning and the clinic is unusually crowded on a weekend.

Waited for about 1 hour to see the sonographer. 1st scan after my menses, and it seems she can't find any follicles yet. Hence I got to start my injection on the third day of my menses.

Dr Lau has prescribed a different medication to the first time I had my IVF procedure. This time is  Gonal F. According to the nurse, Gonal-F and Puregon is similar, its just that some patient response better to either one of them. Since I'm doing well for puregon for the 1st time, Dr Lau might want to try something else which is cheaper. But I realised the dose is higher than previous if I can remember correctly.

I'm suppose to be on Gonal-F for five days and switched medication to Orgalutran for two days starting on Thursday.

Friday will be my next visit to clinic for follow-up. Coincidentally, Davian has no school and hubby will be overseas so I got to get my mum for help to handle ah boy when I'm busy.

Hope everything turns out well!

My 1st day of menses commence!

Tomorrow marks the start of my 2nd IVF procedure...

A little anxious and excited though it is my second time. Looking forward !

Wish me all the best!!

2nd IVF

Have been a year since I logged in to my blog!

Ever since I have given birth to Davian, I have no me-time at all. Believed it is the same for all mums unless you have a helper at home.

Now Davian has turned almost 18 months and we feel its time to have a second one so he can have a playmate at home. It is also the right age gap to have a sibling for him.

We have tried naturally for the past few months but seems no result, no pressure and stress this time. But this time I didn't put much effort to try maybe because we already have one kid. If the 2nd one comes along, it will be a bonus to us.

My hubby feels we should have a second one and he hoped for a girl this time as he feels girl is closer to dad and moreover my boy is closer to me so this makes him even more jealous...lol

And so we have decided to go for our 2nd IVF with Dr Matthew Lau. I'm happy to have him again as my gynae as I knew I'm in good hands. But this doesn't rule out the possibility that I will suffer a failure this time as this is like a game and it counts on the luck I have. I'm still having the feeling of anxiety towards the whole procedure which will be going on during October 14. Hoping for the very best this time too!

Praying hard to God too!