God has taken away my hope and dream yesterday...and it made me sad the whole day. After watching a sad movie, it worsen my mood. Cried out the whole day and I'm mentally prepared for the worst to come.
In my heart, I have accepted it as a failure. It made me think through the whole day, what should I do to face the reality...Finally, I'm able to tell myself to accept the truth. If it is going to be a failure, I will continue with 2nd attempt of IVF. But hopefully Dr Lau and myself learnt from the 1st cycle, and it will be better for the next try. Before I kick start the 2nd attempt of IVF, hope we can try naturally too.
This morning to my surprise, my temperature rose to 36.77 degree at the usual 8 am. I woke up earlier today and realised it was not time to measure yet, so out of curiosity I try measuring my temperature 1st, and it was 36.68 degree initially. This was the same as previous days before the drop. Today, I had my highest temperature ever since the past week. I'm not sure if I have done it accurately because I have already waken up earlier before I took the 2nd time at 8am.
Now God has given me back something....which is a little HOPE by increasing my temperature today- a good sign for conceiving. Though there is a little light, but still I don't want to pin my hope too high. I believe some of my body reaction is due to the medication. Today I still don't feel much symptom and my bloatedness has gone since yesterday, same for my breast soreness.
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