Ever since pregnant, I have not really engage myself to communicate with my baby. I can feel him a lot but just not sure what to talk to him. But the moment when he starts to move and kick, I feel very happy and ease at heart. The only words I always say to him is "Davian you must be a good boy, ok?" I know he is not able to understand but at least this is some words he will be familiar with when he is out to this world.
I felt bad when times I had late nights due to assignments and exams as I knew it will affect him. There is once when I sleep late at 2am plus due to assignments. I can feel my body aching and mind not able to concentrate well. The next day though I woke up late but still feeling tired. I was so paronoid as I realised Davian is not moving much and not kicking as much as before. In my heart, I felt so bad and he must be extremely tired due to my selfishness.
Luckily the next day, he starts to move as per normal. And from then, I feel much more at ease.
Should I start another new blog and communicate with him? By writing letter to him telling him how much we love him and want him to be with us. This is the baby we have been longing for and finally God has grant our wish!
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Birdnest Tonic for pregnancy
This is what my mum in-law has bought for my baby. How thoughtful she is...today I'm going to prepare this nutritious dessert to pamper myself and baby!
Thursday, October 25, 2012
20 weeks detailed scan
Today, we are handled by another sonographer, Alice Oh whom we felt much more comfortable with. 1st, she isn't one of the PRC and she looks singaporean and motherly. 2ndly, the way she speaks is also much more polite compared to the previous one.
Baby was awake when she did the scan, everything seems ok till the part when she needs to check his heart and baby tends to move a lot. She is much more patient and just laugh it off by saying BB is so active now and she would need to scan this area at a later part. Luckily she managed to do it after she has completed the scan for other part of his body. At the end of the scan, BB suddenly put his thumb into his mouth and she managed to capture this moment on the scan for us. SO adorable! All the while, I thought I would only see it online but not for my own but now I witness my BB acting so adorably inside my womb. =)
At the end of the session, she passed us the scan pictures. The scans she captured for us are unique and different and it will be part of our precious memories during my pregnancy.
After the whole session, she has left a deep impression on us. Dear wrote a compliment letter for her and at the same time to feedback about the PRC lady who has served us twice and has left us a deep impression but its a negative one. Well, hope this would serve as an improvement for the department.
Baby was awake when she did the scan, everything seems ok till the part when she needs to check his heart and baby tends to move a lot. She is much more patient and just laugh it off by saying BB is so active now and she would need to scan this area at a later part. Luckily she managed to do it after she has completed the scan for other part of his body. At the end of the scan, BB suddenly put his thumb into his mouth and she managed to capture this moment on the scan for us. SO adorable! All the while, I thought I would only see it online but not for my own but now I witness my BB acting so adorably inside my womb. =)
At the end of the session, she passed us the scan pictures. The scans she captured for us are unique and different and it will be part of our precious memories during my pregnancy.
After the whole session, she has left a deep impression on us. Dear wrote a compliment letter for her and at the same time to feedback about the PRC lady who has served us twice and has left us a deep impression but its a negative one. Well, hope this would serve as an improvement for the department.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
The amazing moment~ Baby Movement
Baby movement is getting more intense each day...The moment I felt his move, it is such an amazing moment! I Love It! =)
Sunday, October 14, 2012
My Baby First Move
Have deep cravings for Thai Express today, but dear don't seem to agree with my appetite. I'm actually craving for their chilli crab, and he is so superstitious to say that if I eat that..BB might become handful...well =/
Luckily, BB gave me idea what to eat for dinner, which is the steam fish head from chinatown market. While I was enjoying my dinner, suddenly I felt a mild punch from inside my stomach. I was stunned for awhile, and realised it was my BB kick! I'm now into 18 weeks, and I remembered Dr Lau mentioned to me that my baby first kick should start from 20 to 28 weeks, so it's about there. And not long after, I felt another mild punch again. So I guess BB must be enjoying the fish that he gave me a KICK!
Luckily, BB gave me idea what to eat for dinner, which is the steam fish head from chinatown market. While I was enjoying my dinner, suddenly I felt a mild punch from inside my stomach. I was stunned for awhile, and realised it was my BB kick! I'm now into 18 weeks, and I remembered Dr Lau mentioned to me that my baby first kick should start from 20 to 28 weeks, so it's about there. And not long after, I felt another mild punch again. So I guess BB must be enjoying the fish that he gave me a KICK!
Thursday, September 6, 2012
PCR results- False Positive!
I am so tensed and stressed for the past 2 days...especially when the result is out anytime today. Since yesterday, I have been calling clinic D at KKH but nobody is picking up my call. Clinic D suppose to recieve my report and passed to Dr Lau for viewing.
I was rather frustrated when I call them many times today and out of desperate I tried calling IVF centre instead which I think it has a higher chance that someone may pick up my call. I called them in the morning around 10.30am, the nurse checked my record and said my report is still pending.
As the result is still not out and it actually affects my mood and appetite for the day. I hardly eat during lunch and was very stressed and worried. I try not to call too frequent in a day inorder not to irritate the nurses there. I waited till 4pm and tried calling IVF centre but nobody picked up my call!! I tried again and again and nobody picked up my call...I was a little panic and tried calling the customer service centre to ask for ADC contact no. Luckily the nurse transfer the call for me to the dept. I spoke to the nurse and she told me my report is already out and it was despatched out to clinic D and she do not have a copy of my report with her.
I knew it is useless to call clinic D, so I decided to call Dear to make a trip to KKH to retrieve the report. He told me he is in the office but he could make it there before the clinic closed.
He waited for quite a while before the nurse attended to him. The nurse actually couldn't trace my report from the system and she was searching high and low for the report and finally it was slot in one of the shelves waiting for doctor's approval. She printed a copy for Dear to see and he whatsapp me the report.
PHEW!!! The results showed my three major chromosome 13, 18 and 21 are apparently normal and my baby is a BOY!
The detail report supposed to tell if my other chromosome are normal which will be out in another 1 1/2 weeks time.
What a relieved!!!
Thank GOD, I can sleep well and eat well tonight! ... Though we prefer girl than boy but as long as baby is healthy we are fine with any gender. =) X 100
Right after work, we are in the mood for shopping and we headed off to suntec for dinner and at the same time shop for birthday present for winter.
We are so delighted and now we can start looking for baby stuffs and we know what we should focus too since the gender is already known.
I was rather frustrated when I call them many times today and out of desperate I tried calling IVF centre instead which I think it has a higher chance that someone may pick up my call. I called them in the morning around 10.30am, the nurse checked my record and said my report is still pending.
As the result is still not out and it actually affects my mood and appetite for the day. I hardly eat during lunch and was very stressed and worried. I try not to call too frequent in a day inorder not to irritate the nurses there. I waited till 4pm and tried calling IVF centre but nobody picked up my call!! I tried again and again and nobody picked up my call...I was a little panic and tried calling the customer service centre to ask for ADC contact no. Luckily the nurse transfer the call for me to the dept. I spoke to the nurse and she told me my report is already out and it was despatched out to clinic D and she do not have a copy of my report with her.
I knew it is useless to call clinic D, so I decided to call Dear to make a trip to KKH to retrieve the report. He told me he is in the office but he could make it there before the clinic closed.
He waited for quite a while before the nurse attended to him. The nurse actually couldn't trace my report from the system and she was searching high and low for the report and finally it was slot in one of the shelves waiting for doctor's approval. She printed a copy for Dear to see and he whatsapp me the report.
PHEW!!! The results showed my three major chromosome 13, 18 and 21 are apparently normal and my baby is a BOY!
The detail report supposed to tell if my other chromosome are normal which will be out in another 1 1/2 weeks time.
What a relieved!!!
Thank GOD, I can sleep well and eat well tonight! ... Though we prefer girl than boy but as long as baby is healthy we are fine with any gender. =) X 100
Right after work, we are in the mood for shopping and we headed off to suntec for dinner and at the same time shop for birthday present for winter.
We are so delighted and now we can start looking for baby stuffs and we know what we should focus too since the gender is already known.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
CVS
Today is the day for CVS procedure. Our appointment is at 8am sharp and we reached there 10 mins earlier. I'm not feeling tense but somehow relaxed.
I was brought to the scan room before the procedure to do a scan for baby first. The moment I saw baby from the monitor, baby was at a weird position which I couldn't figure where his head and body is till the sonographer told me. After looking at the screen for a while, then we saw baby in a "child pose" position which is similar to kneeling with head down like praying. In my heart, I was thinking if baby is praying for good luck before the procedure...lol. With this position, we can see the baby's spine which was not detected during the OSCAR scan.
Baby was very active, not long after he/she changed position again and back to normal lying down position. After looking at baby before the procedure, it actually help me relax a lot.
After the scan, we waited outside the procedure room for the doctor to arrive. Shortly, a clinician approached us to do a survey on a research study. We decided to go ahead with the research plus it doesn't need any extra samples from me except for my blood. In exchange for this research, I am given a free growth scan at week 28.
Not long after the talk and waiting outside the room, the doctor arrives. I was glad I was handled by the famous doctor who is Prof John Tee, an expert in CVS. I heard there is only a few doctor doing this procedure so they are very experienced. I was asked to lye on the bed and the doctor didn't even warn me before he poke a needle into my tummy, the pain is a bit unbearable but I have to control myself. The needle pain is actually from the tube for inserting anesthesia. Not long after he told me it's done, which means he has injected the anesthesia. I saw him carrying a big tube of needle which looks so scary, it seems like a catherer to suck out the tissues from placenta. Inside the bottle there is this pink liquid. He inserted the needle into the tube and keep on sucking out the tissue while viewing the monitor. While he is doing that, I saw baby's head beside the placenta moving about. He draw out two bottles of samples, one is for express result and the other one for the detail report. The after effect is very mild, so while I walk I must be very careful. The whole procedure is very fast like 5 mins only. That tells how expert Prof Tee is to finish in such a short time frame.
Right after I reached home, Dear was very caring. He asked me to lye down and rest while he do all the household chores at home. I know during this period, it is very hard on him. So I must reward him for what he has done for us.
After all, I hope baby is fine and gender is not important to me. Though the nurse told me that the result will be out within 3 days but I am still very eager to find out before the 3 days.
Really hope GOD grant me my wish for baby to be healthy and nothing is going to happen to baby.
I was brought to the scan room before the procedure to do a scan for baby first. The moment I saw baby from the monitor, baby was at a weird position which I couldn't figure where his head and body is till the sonographer told me. After looking at the screen for a while, then we saw baby in a "child pose" position which is similar to kneeling with head down like praying. In my heart, I was thinking if baby is praying for good luck before the procedure...lol. With this position, we can see the baby's spine which was not detected during the OSCAR scan.
Baby was very active, not long after he/she changed position again and back to normal lying down position. After looking at baby before the procedure, it actually help me relax a lot.
After the scan, we waited outside the procedure room for the doctor to arrive. Shortly, a clinician approached us to do a survey on a research study. We decided to go ahead with the research plus it doesn't need any extra samples from me except for my blood. In exchange for this research, I am given a free growth scan at week 28.
Not long after the talk and waiting outside the room, the doctor arrives. I was glad I was handled by the famous doctor who is Prof John Tee, an expert in CVS. I heard there is only a few doctor doing this procedure so they are very experienced. I was asked to lye on the bed and the doctor didn't even warn me before he poke a needle into my tummy, the pain is a bit unbearable but I have to control myself. The needle pain is actually from the tube for inserting anesthesia. Not long after he told me it's done, which means he has injected the anesthesia. I saw him carrying a big tube of needle which looks so scary, it seems like a catherer to suck out the tissues from placenta. Inside the bottle there is this pink liquid. He inserted the needle into the tube and keep on sucking out the tissue while viewing the monitor. While he is doing that, I saw baby's head beside the placenta moving about. He draw out two bottles of samples, one is for express result and the other one for the detail report. The after effect is very mild, so while I walk I must be very careful. The whole procedure is very fast like 5 mins only. That tells how expert Prof Tee is to finish in such a short time frame.
Right after I reached home, Dear was very caring. He asked me to lye down and rest while he do all the household chores at home. I know during this period, it is very hard on him. So I must reward him for what he has done for us.
After all, I hope baby is fine and gender is not important to me. Though the nurse told me that the result will be out within 3 days but I am still very eager to find out before the 3 days.
Really hope GOD grant me my wish for baby to be healthy and nothing is going to happen to baby.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Poor OSCAR result
Today I'm feeling tensed because it is an important day for us.
We are going for our OSCAR test appoitntment. Waited for about 15 mins outside the counter and we are lead to the waiting area for the scan. I was asked to clear my urine before doing the scan, and I did. The wait was long as there are only two rooms available for scans. After about 45 mins, my name was called and I went into the scan room. The sonographer is a china lady and she asked me to lye on the bed while she performed the scan. While she is moving the scan on my tummy, I was looking at the monitor screen and her expression too. I can sense something is not right as she seems very impatient while doing the scan. She commented that there is some urine in my bladder and she couldn't see clearly, but she didn't ask me to clear my bladder 1st but continue to scan and take pictures. In the end she finally asked me to go clear my bladder as she couldn't trace the part she wants to scan. When I came back, she seems even more impatient and rough and keep shaking my tummy with the scan and I saw my baby swaying here and there in my tummy. I understand she wants to shift the baby position but at least she should warn me before doing that, so that I'm mentally prepared for it. After the scans was done, we waited at the waiting area and it took a long time before we are called again. We saw a few couples paying for their balance fee, but for me the nurse told me that I can't pay 1st as the doctor needs to speak to me 1st. From here, I knew something is not right.
I was sent to the counter by the nurse and shortly doctor called my name. She analysed the result with us and the only problem with the result is the T21 chromosome which is the measurement of the neck thickness too thick and the overall reading is 1 : 258. It should be above 1 :300 to be normal. This means there is a slight risk of down syndrome but she says it may not be true that baby is really down syndrome. It's just an indication that further test needs to be done. When we hear this from doctor, I was a bit lost and almost cried but I control myself. I turned to dear and I could feel that he is very sad too as I saw a pair of teary eyes.
Doctor offered us to do CVS test (chorionic villus sampling). It involves taking a sample of cells from the tissue of the placenta and test for the important chromosomes to confirm if baby has down syndrome. I had done some read up before the OSCAR test and I immediately agreed to go ahead for the test. But this carries a small risk of misarriage, according to her is 1 :1000. This test can only be conducted between 11 to 14 weeks. We went through the conselling for the CVS and we even opted for express result to be known within 3 days. The detailed report will only be out within 14 days which is too long a wait for us. For the express report, it will cover the 3 main chromosome T21, T18 and T13 and also one more chromosome to test for the gender of baby. I am scheduled on tues for the test and heard It is a bit taxing on the mother as there could be side effect from the needle and procedure. I will be given 2 days MC after that.
On the way home, we both felt very depressed and sad. Surprisingly, I'm not really hungry and no sign of nauseous also today. I guess my mood has affected my baby's appetite also. After lunch, we head home and we both slept and I felt drained off. But I felt better after a sleep and went to do some research regards to poor OSCAR test. It seems it is very common for people to get bad results from OSCAR test as it is not an accurate test. Because the results could be due to baby's position or sonographer's skill to detect the sign. So a more accurate test which is the CVS or Amniocentesis are the best option for detecting down syndome.
Dear was not very pleased with the sonograper, the way she handle me during the scan. I know he is sad but he feels the result is partly due to the skill of the sonographer. He wanted to file a complaint against her and hope she can improve her service to other patients.
I believe this is a test from GOD, to strengthen our relationship and also to know how much we treasure our baby. I have faith in him to protect my baby but still the fear can never eased till the result is out.
May GOD bless my baby to be well and healthy and this would be the best gift he has given us.
We are going for our OSCAR test appoitntment. Waited for about 15 mins outside the counter and we are lead to the waiting area for the scan. I was asked to clear my urine before doing the scan, and I did. The wait was long as there are only two rooms available for scans. After about 45 mins, my name was called and I went into the scan room. The sonographer is a china lady and she asked me to lye on the bed while she performed the scan. While she is moving the scan on my tummy, I was looking at the monitor screen and her expression too. I can sense something is not right as she seems very impatient while doing the scan. She commented that there is some urine in my bladder and she couldn't see clearly, but she didn't ask me to clear my bladder 1st but continue to scan and take pictures. In the end she finally asked me to go clear my bladder as she couldn't trace the part she wants to scan. When I came back, she seems even more impatient and rough and keep shaking my tummy with the scan and I saw my baby swaying here and there in my tummy. I understand she wants to shift the baby position but at least she should warn me before doing that, so that I'm mentally prepared for it. After the scans was done, we waited at the waiting area and it took a long time before we are called again. We saw a few couples paying for their balance fee, but for me the nurse told me that I can't pay 1st as the doctor needs to speak to me 1st. From here, I knew something is not right.
I was sent to the counter by the nurse and shortly doctor called my name. She analysed the result with us and the only problem with the result is the T21 chromosome which is the measurement of the neck thickness too thick and the overall reading is 1 : 258. It should be above 1 :300 to be normal. This means there is a slight risk of down syndrome but she says it may not be true that baby is really down syndrome. It's just an indication that further test needs to be done. When we hear this from doctor, I was a bit lost and almost cried but I control myself. I turned to dear and I could feel that he is very sad too as I saw a pair of teary eyes.
Doctor offered us to do CVS test (chorionic villus sampling). It involves taking a sample of cells from the tissue of the placenta and test for the important chromosomes to confirm if baby has down syndrome. I had done some read up before the OSCAR test and I immediately agreed to go ahead for the test. But this carries a small risk of misarriage, according to her is 1 :1000. This test can only be conducted between 11 to 14 weeks. We went through the conselling for the CVS and we even opted for express result to be known within 3 days. The detailed report will only be out within 14 days which is too long a wait for us. For the express report, it will cover the 3 main chromosome T21, T18 and T13 and also one more chromosome to test for the gender of baby. I am scheduled on tues for the test and heard It is a bit taxing on the mother as there could be side effect from the needle and procedure. I will be given 2 days MC after that.
On the way home, we both felt very depressed and sad. Surprisingly, I'm not really hungry and no sign of nauseous also today. I guess my mood has affected my baby's appetite also. After lunch, we head home and we both slept and I felt drained off. But I felt better after a sleep and went to do some research regards to poor OSCAR test. It seems it is very common for people to get bad results from OSCAR test as it is not an accurate test. Because the results could be due to baby's position or sonographer's skill to detect the sign. So a more accurate test which is the CVS or Amniocentesis are the best option for detecting down syndome.
Dear was not very pleased with the sonograper, the way she handle me during the scan. I know he is sad but he feels the result is partly due to the skill of the sonographer. He wanted to file a complaint against her and hope she can improve her service to other patients.
I believe this is a test from GOD, to strengthen our relationship and also to know how much we treasure our baby. I have faith in him to protect my baby but still the fear can never eased till the result is out.
May GOD bless my baby to be well and healthy and this would be the best gift he has given us.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Options for OSCAR test
Today I went for my appointment to choose an option for OSCAR test.
I was given three options:
A - Blood test with 80% detection rate
B - Blood test and scan with 90% detection rate
C- Blood test and scan with 90% detection rate but it will take longer to know result.
Among the three options, the most expensive one is definitely option B. I still pick option B as I get to know the result on the day of scan. I think that will be the best option for us so we can rest our mind at ease and celebrate our journey to the 2nd trimester after the result is out !!!
May God continue to bless us and baby on 31 Aug 12, Friday!
I was given three options:
A - Blood test with 80% detection rate
B - Blood test and scan with 90% detection rate
C- Blood test and scan with 90% detection rate but it will take longer to know result.
Among the three options, the most expensive one is definitely option B. I still pick option B as I get to know the result on the day of scan. I think that will be the best option for us so we can rest our mind at ease and celebrate our journey to the 2nd trimester after the result is out !!!
May God continue to bless us and baby on 31 Aug 12, Friday!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
10 Weeks- Monitor baby's heartbeat
The 3 weeks waiting to see my baby again is such a long wait...and I can't feel at ease
As according to my gynae, 10 weeks gestation is the most crucial time to check if baby's heartbeat is still beating well. If I passed the 10 weeks, I'm almost safe.
Instead of hearing baby's heart beat, Dr. Lau did an ultrasound scan. And I was so excited to meet my little one again! =D
The doctor didn't show it to me when he was moving the scan on my tummy, he showed my hubby first and I'm the last one to meet my baby in the room. When I saw baby, I was surprised to see baby's hands waving vigourously at me! Baby is so active in my tummy but I couldn't feel his movement as baby is still very small. Baby's heartbeat is also beating well, with flicking light on his left side shown on the screen. Baby look so different from the first time I met him/her, he/she is so much bigger size than before. I feel so happy and ease at heart when I saw him/her... =) Baby size is abit big and that tells why my appetite is so hugh o,0
As according to my gynae, 10 weeks gestation is the most crucial time to check if baby's heartbeat is still beating well. If I passed the 10 weeks, I'm almost safe.
Instead of hearing baby's heart beat, Dr. Lau did an ultrasound scan. And I was so excited to meet my little one again! =D
The doctor didn't show it to me when he was moving the scan on my tummy, he showed my hubby first and I'm the last one to meet my baby in the room. When I saw baby, I was surprised to see baby's hands waving vigourously at me! Baby is so active in my tummy but I couldn't feel his movement as baby is still very small. Baby's heartbeat is also beating well, with flicking light on his left side shown on the screen. Baby look so different from the first time I met him/her, he/she is so much bigger size than before. I feel so happy and ease at heart when I saw him/her... =) Baby size is abit big and that tells why my appetite is so hugh o,0
Doctor also recommend me to do the OSCAR check for down symdrome and we have decided to go ahead with it. I will be referred to another doctor for the check and the next appointment with Dr Lau will be at 4 months gestation.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
7 weeks and I get to meet my little one for the 1st time
I'm so happy to see my BB for the 1st time since i'm pregnant. When I saw him/her from the ultrasound tv, it really ease my mind and feel settled. BB is measuring 9mm which doctor says should be the size of a 7 weeks fetus and I saw his/her heartbeats. Its really an amazing moment!
My EDD estimated to be 13 Mar 13.
May God continue to bless both of us, the next time to see him/her is 3 weeks from now and he/she should be 10 weeks old. =)
My EDD estimated to be 13 Mar 13.
May God continue to bless both of us, the next time to see him/her is 3 weeks from now and he/she should be 10 weeks old. =)
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Symptoms at 6 weeks Pregnant
New symptoms as of this week:
1. Pulling sensation from naval.
2. Getting more lerthargic
3. Some hair growth around breast and around belly button
4. Aerola remains big and protruding.
5. Heavier bump and its getting bigger each day
Pregnancy is such an amazing change in a woman's body, I realised some changes that has never happen to me before... =)
1. Pulling sensation from naval.
2. Getting more lerthargic
3. Some hair growth around breast and around belly button
4. Aerola remains big and protruding.
5. Heavier bump and its getting bigger each day
Pregnancy is such an amazing change in a woman's body, I realised some changes that has never happen to me before... =)
Thursday, July 19, 2012
6 weeks 1 day Pregnant
My worries has never ease...the moment I felt the pain on my left side abdomen, my mind will freak out and wonder if it is ectopic. Knowing that my next appointment is getting nearer, I feel so excited. Today marks my 6 weeks and 1 day pregnant, by the time I go for my appointment I should be 7 weeks pregnant. If doctor is able to find the sac and my baby inside they should be able to hear my baby heartbeat and I'm gonna get excited!
Yesterday was my 6 weeks, and I start to feel lots of cramp all over my abdomen and felt a little tight below my abdomen. It could be my uterus stretching and that is where the cramps are coming from. It lasted for almost the whole day till night. In the evening, I started to feel a little light headed and that could be one of the symptom.
Today I received a blessing from my MD who has learnt about my pregnancy from Aim. She is really kind and says I should take it easy and stay as relax as possible. If I couldn't cope in anyway, I can go to her and she can help. With her words, I feel much more relaxed. She also says she will include me in her prayer, which makes me feel even more blessed. With all the prayers from people around me, it actually helps to ease my tension away.
Not many people in the office knew about my pregnancy, but I knew they are already speculating i'm pregnant and I do not wish to announce till i'm ready...
MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS ME AND MY BABY INSIDE ME!
Yesterday was my 6 weeks, and I start to feel lots of cramp all over my abdomen and felt a little tight below my abdomen. It could be my uterus stretching and that is where the cramps are coming from. It lasted for almost the whole day till night. In the evening, I started to feel a little light headed and that could be one of the symptom.
Today I received a blessing from my MD who has learnt about my pregnancy from Aim. She is really kind and says I should take it easy and stay as relax as possible. If I couldn't cope in anyway, I can go to her and she can help. With her words, I feel much more relaxed. She also says she will include me in her prayer, which makes me feel even more blessed. With all the prayers from people around me, it actually helps to ease my tension away.
Not many people in the office knew about my pregnancy, but I knew they are already speculating i'm pregnant and I do not wish to announce till i'm ready...
MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS ME AND MY BABY INSIDE ME!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
OMG! I took the wrong medicine
Ever since I started on the IVF treatment, I couldn't focus on anything other than baby. And now, that I am pregnant it make me worst and my mind couldn't focus on anything including my work and study. How I hope I could do my ultrasound scan soon so that it can ease my mind of any negative thoughts.
Today, my mind was not focusing again and I took the wrong medicine from my bag! I am suppose to take the progesterone pill but I took antihistamine instead. It freak me out of my life, and I call KKIVF immediately to ask the nurse if anything would happen to my baby. She consulted a doctor before answering me, she says if it is just one tablet is ok but I am not allowed to take any medication during pregnancy. Of cos I know I shouldn't take any other medicine without doctor supervision but this is really a pure accident!! To ease my mind further, I read from internet that chlorpheniramine, the antihistamine I took is still safe for 1st trimester pregnancy but it should be taken carefully when near to third trimester...Phew!
Because of that, I am feeling quite drowsy. I was adviced to drink lots of water to flush it away and that made me run a numbers of toliet trips today. I learnt my lesson, and I quickly store it away in my cabinet.
After the incident, I felt a little cramp. I don't know if I am imagining things but defintely I could feel something which I have not felt for a while. I think my baby is protesting against the medicine....Hmmm. Throughout the day, I felt little cramps below my uterus and I hope it is not because of the medicine I took wrongly and it is pure coincidence. If it is my uterus stretching than I will be happy because for the past few days I have no symptom and I am afraid something might happen to my baby.
Today, my mind was not focusing again and I took the wrong medicine from my bag! I am suppose to take the progesterone pill but I took antihistamine instead. It freak me out of my life, and I call KKIVF immediately to ask the nurse if anything would happen to my baby. She consulted a doctor before answering me, she says if it is just one tablet is ok but I am not allowed to take any medication during pregnancy. Of cos I know I shouldn't take any other medicine without doctor supervision but this is really a pure accident!! To ease my mind further, I read from internet that chlorpheniramine, the antihistamine I took is still safe for 1st trimester pregnancy but it should be taken carefully when near to third trimester...Phew!
Because of that, I am feeling quite drowsy. I was adviced to drink lots of water to flush it away and that made me run a numbers of toliet trips today. I learnt my lesson, and I quickly store it away in my cabinet.
After the incident, I felt a little cramp. I don't know if I am imagining things but defintely I could feel something which I have not felt for a while. I think my baby is protesting against the medicine....Hmmm. Throughout the day, I felt little cramps below my uterus and I hope it is not because of the medicine I took wrongly and it is pure coincidence. If it is my uterus stretching than I will be happy because for the past few days I have no symptom and I am afraid something might happen to my baby.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
My 1st few pregnancy symptoms
Estimated to be 5 weeks
1. Breast Sore and aerola bigger.
2. Frequent urination.
3. Constipation
4. Occasionally cramps
5. My tummy shows a little
My weight remains the same...at 46 kg.
1. Breast Sore and aerola bigger.
2. Frequent urination.
3. Constipation
4. Occasionally cramps
5. My tummy shows a little
My weight remains the same...at 46 kg.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Lactose Intolerance with formula milk
Christine has passed back some leftover Mamil Mama old formula to the company which she has collected previously for distribution to her clients. Since it can't be used anymore, so I asked her to pass me those sample sachets for my own consumption.
This morning, I'm excited to try out one sachet of the Mamil Mama...for the next 4 to 5 hours nothing happen except for a smooth bowel movement. After not long, I felt a gush of gas churning in my stomach and resulted in some cramps in my tummy. Went to the toliet and passed out water like diarrhoea and some of the waste material which I have eaten the previous night. I was so worried, and start to panic. Not long after felt another urge to pass motion and this time its water and waste material again which is the vegetables rejected by the body. Felt so uncomfortable with the churning and cramps.
When I was in the training, I couldn't concentrate and keep searching for an answer to my problem now. I couldn't ease my mind still, and decides to call KKIVF and asked the nurse. She said as long as I do not pass watery stools for more than 8 times, it is fine. The interval time should be 1 min to be considered severe diarrhoea and I got to go 24hrs women clinic for a check. My concern is if it will affect my fetus if I am having diarrhoea and her answer is no. The concern is dehydration from diarrhoea which is harmful for the fetus. After hearing what she says, I felt much better. But the gasses in my tummy is feeling so uncomfortable till after I had some hot fish soup noodle during lunch. So I keep myself hydrated with water to make sure my baby is not dehydrated.
I would never want to try any formula milk anymore, since this encounter. I didn't know I have lactose intolerance if I didn't try taking formula milk today. Though the nurse and some research from internet has proven that there is no harm to the fetus during diarrhoea but still I can't rest my mind until my 1st ultrasound scan on 25th July to prove that my baby is safe and developing.
According to some IVF pregnancy calculator from internet, I'm considered 6 weeks pregnant but still I have not experience much symptom. I knew if the progesterone hormone is high, I should expect classic pregnancy symptom like vomitting but still I don't feel anything. Wonder if my hormone is picking up fast? How I hope time flies and I got to go for my 1st ultrasound soon. :(
This morning, I'm excited to try out one sachet of the Mamil Mama...for the next 4 to 5 hours nothing happen except for a smooth bowel movement. After not long, I felt a gush of gas churning in my stomach and resulted in some cramps in my tummy. Went to the toliet and passed out water like diarrhoea and some of the waste material which I have eaten the previous night. I was so worried, and start to panic. Not long after felt another urge to pass motion and this time its water and waste material again which is the vegetables rejected by the body. Felt so uncomfortable with the churning and cramps.
When I was in the training, I couldn't concentrate and keep searching for an answer to my problem now. I couldn't ease my mind still, and decides to call KKIVF and asked the nurse. She said as long as I do not pass watery stools for more than 8 times, it is fine. The interval time should be 1 min to be considered severe diarrhoea and I got to go 24hrs women clinic for a check. My concern is if it will affect my fetus if I am having diarrhoea and her answer is no. The concern is dehydration from diarrhoea which is harmful for the fetus. After hearing what she says, I felt much better. But the gasses in my tummy is feeling so uncomfortable till after I had some hot fish soup noodle during lunch. So I keep myself hydrated with water to make sure my baby is not dehydrated.
I would never want to try any formula milk anymore, since this encounter. I didn't know I have lactose intolerance if I didn't try taking formula milk today. Though the nurse and some research from internet has proven that there is no harm to the fetus during diarrhoea but still I can't rest my mind until my 1st ultrasound scan on 25th July to prove that my baby is safe and developing.
According to some IVF pregnancy calculator from internet, I'm considered 6 weeks pregnant but still I have not experience much symptom. I knew if the progesterone hormone is high, I should expect classic pregnancy symptom like vomitting but still I don't feel anything. Wonder if my hormone is picking up fast? How I hope time flies and I got to go for my 1st ultrasound soon. :(
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Beta HCG
Have checked on the level of HCG at different stage of pregnancy, below is the guide:
3 weeks LMP: 5 - 50 mIU/ml
4 weeks LMP: 5 - 426 mIU/ml
5 weeks LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml
6 weeks LMP: 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml
7 - 8 weeks LMP: 7, 650 - 229,000 mIU/ml
9 - 12 weeks LMP: 25,700 - 288,000 mIU/ml
13 - 16 weeks LMP: 13,300 - 254,000 mIU/ml
17 - 24 weeks LMP: 4,060 - 165,400 mIU/ml
25 - 40 weeks LMP: 3,640 - 117,000 mIU/ml
Non-pregnant females: < 5.0 mIU/ml
Postmenopausal females: < 9.5 mIU/ml
* These numbers are just a GUIDELINE-- every woman’s level of hCG can rise differently. It is not necessarily the level that matters but rather the change in the level.
Heard from Aim (my colleague) that her doctor couldn't find any sac during her 4 weeks pregnant and her beta is about 500mIU, after that her doctor prescribed her the hormone pills and her beta went up and she is stable. Initially i'm worried cos mine is lower than hers at 4 weeks though mine is within the range, but doctor is prescribing me with the hormone pills to support the baby. After reading from the web, I'm more convinced and not that worried anymore. Hope it works well.
PRAY! PRAY! PRAY!
3 weeks LMP: 5 - 50 mIU/ml
4 weeks LMP: 5 - 426 mIU/ml
5 weeks LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml
6 weeks LMP: 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml
7 - 8 weeks LMP: 7, 650 - 229,000 mIU/ml
9 - 12 weeks LMP: 25,700 - 288,000 mIU/ml
13 - 16 weeks LMP: 13,300 - 254,000 mIU/ml
17 - 24 weeks LMP: 4,060 - 165,400 mIU/ml
25 - 40 weeks LMP: 3,640 - 117,000 mIU/ml
Non-pregnant females: < 5.0 mIU/ml
Postmenopausal females: < 9.5 mIU/ml
* These numbers are just a GUIDELINE-- every woman’s level of hCG can rise differently. It is not necessarily the level that matters but rather the change in the level.
Heard from Aim (my colleague) that her doctor couldn't find any sac during her 4 weeks pregnant and her beta is about 500mIU, after that her doctor prescribed her the hormone pills and her beta went up and she is stable. Initially i'm worried cos mine is lower than hers at 4 weeks though mine is within the range, but doctor is prescribing me with the hormone pills to support the baby. After reading from the web, I'm more convinced and not that worried anymore. Hope it works well.
PRAY! PRAY! PRAY!
Monday, July 9, 2012
1st IVF - BFP!!!
Today is an important day for us, its the day to test for pregnancy in the hospital. Woke up at 7.30am and started to prepare myself to go KKH for the test. I'm quite worried and tense in the morning as I'm not sure if the result is going to be the same as what is shown on the pregnancy test?
Reached there about 8.30am, and shortly my turn for the blood test. Nurse told me that the result will be out between 1 - 4pm. I told the nurse if it is possible to announce the result once it is out and she says as soon as the result is out, they will call. From my previous experience, normally the result should be out before noon. So I head home right after the test, and went back to study for test tonight.
Trying to focus as much as possible and felt tired in a short while. Recently, I felt so lerthargic and I hope It is the side effect from prgenancy. If it is true, then I would believe my baby loves to sleep in the day and not in the night, because night time I seem to be more awake in the night.
Felt so hungry at as early as 11.30am and I went down to buy lunch and tabao back. While I'm eating my fishball noodle, my phone rang and expecting it to divert to my home phone. And who knows my home phone was not on and I missed the call. From the number I knew it was a call from KKIVF. I tried to call back but it is a general line and the nurse says she couldn't trace who call and asked me to wait for her to return call. I was sad and dissapointed and keep trying my luck to dial the number to KKIVF. Finally, I got through and the nurse who called me attended to me. First she introduced herself and asked to verify my NRIC no. After that she confirmed if I did went to KKH for pregnancy test, after that she says "Congratulation Miss Lau, you are PREGNANT!" At that moment I was calm and happy and replied her "Thank You", though I have already knew what's the outcome but didn't want to assure it is true till the blood test. I was told to go back to KKIVF for prescription and appointment booking with a doctor 2 weeks later.
From the letter I received from the nurse, I saw that my Beta HCG was 422.6 IU/L which was very high!
They have a refernce info like:
< 5 IU/L (Non Pregnant)
B HCG levels between 5 IU/L and 25 IU/L maybe indicative of early pregnancy.
So my beta confirm I am pregnant!!!
I went back about 2.30pm, and I was prescribed hormone pills to support the baby so called "An Tai Yao" and some folic acid for a month.
My next appointment on 25 July for my 1st ultrasound scan and to see my gynae...
Another amazing thing, is that our test for tonight will be cancelled as one of my classmate is not able to come for the test in time....This is so coincidence as I really have no time to study and not much has gone into my brain.
God must have blessed me with such smooth plans for me!
Reached there about 8.30am, and shortly my turn for the blood test. Nurse told me that the result will be out between 1 - 4pm. I told the nurse if it is possible to announce the result once it is out and she says as soon as the result is out, they will call. From my previous experience, normally the result should be out before noon. So I head home right after the test, and went back to study for test tonight.
Trying to focus as much as possible and felt tired in a short while. Recently, I felt so lerthargic and I hope It is the side effect from prgenancy. If it is true, then I would believe my baby loves to sleep in the day and not in the night, because night time I seem to be more awake in the night.
Felt so hungry at as early as 11.30am and I went down to buy lunch and tabao back. While I'm eating my fishball noodle, my phone rang and expecting it to divert to my home phone. And who knows my home phone was not on and I missed the call. From the number I knew it was a call from KKIVF. I tried to call back but it is a general line and the nurse says she couldn't trace who call and asked me to wait for her to return call. I was sad and dissapointed and keep trying my luck to dial the number to KKIVF. Finally, I got through and the nurse who called me attended to me. First she introduced herself and asked to verify my NRIC no. After that she confirmed if I did went to KKH for pregnancy test, after that she says "Congratulation Miss Lau, you are PREGNANT!" At that moment I was calm and happy and replied her "Thank You", though I have already knew what's the outcome but didn't want to assure it is true till the blood test. I was told to go back to KKIVF for prescription and appointment booking with a doctor 2 weeks later.
From the letter I received from the nurse, I saw that my Beta HCG was 422.6 IU/L which was very high!
They have a refernce info like:
< 5 IU/L (Non Pregnant)
B HCG levels between 5 IU/L and 25 IU/L maybe indicative of early pregnancy.
So my beta confirm I am pregnant!!!
I went back about 2.30pm, and I was prescribed hormone pills to support the baby so called "An Tai Yao" and some folic acid for a month.
My next appointment on 25 July for my 1st ultrasound scan and to see my gynae...
Another amazing thing, is that our test for tonight will be cancelled as one of my classmate is not able to come for the test in time....This is so coincidence as I really have no time to study and not much has gone into my brain.
God must have blessed me with such smooth plans for me!
Saturday, July 7, 2012
NDP Preview 2012
Our Second time to NDP but this time is preview....
Though it's a raining day, but it has not dampen our mood.
15 DPT
Couldn't really sleep last night, must be sleeping too much during the day. Feeling warm which comes from my internal heat. Last night felt that my breast starts to sore and aerola gets bigger too, but the soreness went off this morning.
I woke up at 5.30am cos I have the urge to pass urine, so I make used of this chance to take my HPT reading. My urine concentration quite diluted so I'm afraid it will not give me good result, moreover I'm using a less sentitive hpt strip. After dipping the strip in the urine, the line shows very faint, so I decided to get an OPK strip to compare. Both starts to show a little line, by the time I woke up at 8am the line was almost as obvious as the previous days...
Today, I gave up the idea of testing my BBT cos I read that during pregnancy, temperature will be fluctuating. So no point, stressing myself over the temperature reading...
I woke up at 5.30am cos I have the urge to pass urine, so I make used of this chance to take my HPT reading. My urine concentration quite diluted so I'm afraid it will not give me good result, moreover I'm using a less sentitive hpt strip. After dipping the strip in the urine, the line shows very faint, so I decided to get an OPK strip to compare. Both starts to show a little line, by the time I woke up at 8am the line was almost as obvious as the previous days...
Today, I gave up the idea of testing my BBT cos I read that during pregnancy, temperature will be fluctuating. So no point, stressing myself over the temperature reading...
Hope on Monday, I will receive good news.
Friday, July 6, 2012
14 DPT- ClearBlue Digital test
BBT Today: 36.62 (Earlier at 7.30am)
BBT Yesterday: 36.69 (at 8am)
My BBT today is lower by 0.07 degree, not sure is it because I took it at a different time. I knew it's best to test at the same time everyday but I couldn't wait anymore with my full bladder. Tried to do it 5 minutes before 8am, but my temperature went even lower....very demoralising...dunno what's wrong with my hormone today.
With this kind of reading today, the more I wanted to test out with the ClearBlue digital kit which I bought the past few days. Suppose to do it tomorrow morning, but I'm worried...The result came to be a surprise though my temperature drops...it says "Pregnant" and not long after it shows "2-3" which indicate the number of weeks I'm pregnant!
I'm feeling rather excited, and intend to show it to Dear...I knew I promised to announce only after the blood test on monday but I rather trust the kit. Hope it don't dissapoint me....
Dear was still sleeping soundly, so I decide to wait till he is awake and show it to him so I lye on the bed and read the instruction manual of the kit. I'm actually wrong with the sensitivity of the Clearblue test kit...after reading the manual, it says it detects a sensitivity of 25mIU and not 50mIU which I read online yesterday.
The moment he is awake , I say I have something to show you and after staring for a while on the digital kit, he was a little surprised and he keep holding on the kit and stared on the reading...he was grinning! I thought he will not get any excited but I was wrong...after that he commented that he would have to help me do all housework from now on and he even ask my doggy not to jump on me anymore, cos I'm no. 1 in the family now!.... He did ask why I'm so anxious to do the test so early, but I knew he is excited to know the result too... =P
Hee i'm glad he is excited and happy about it....He even initiate to accompany me to the hospital for blood test on monday, but I told him it will take a few hours for the blood test result to be out so I can go alone. He has course on that day, so not possible for him to take leave. I'm okie actually, since he had initiated to come with me, I'm already glad with his initiative.
I hope god can continue to bless me with good result on monday...PRAY HARD!
BBT Yesterday: 36.69 (at 8am)
My BBT today is lower by 0.07 degree, not sure is it because I took it at a different time. I knew it's best to test at the same time everyday but I couldn't wait anymore with my full bladder. Tried to do it 5 minutes before 8am, but my temperature went even lower....very demoralising...dunno what's wrong with my hormone today.
With this kind of reading today, the more I wanted to test out with the ClearBlue digital kit which I bought the past few days. Suppose to do it tomorrow morning, but I'm worried...The result came to be a surprise though my temperature drops...it says "Pregnant" and not long after it shows "2-3" which indicate the number of weeks I'm pregnant!
I'm feeling rather excited, and intend to show it to Dear...I knew I promised to announce only after the blood test on monday but I rather trust the kit. Hope it don't dissapoint me....
Dear was still sleeping soundly, so I decide to wait till he is awake and show it to him so I lye on the bed and read the instruction manual of the kit. I'm actually wrong with the sensitivity of the Clearblue test kit...after reading the manual, it says it detects a sensitivity of 25mIU and not 50mIU which I read online yesterday.
The moment he is awake , I say I have something to show you and after staring for a while on the digital kit, he was a little surprised and he keep holding on the kit and stared on the reading...he was grinning! I thought he will not get any excited but I was wrong...after that he commented that he would have to help me do all housework from now on and he even ask my doggy not to jump on me anymore, cos I'm no. 1 in the family now!.... He did ask why I'm so anxious to do the test so early, but I knew he is excited to know the result too... =P
Hee i'm glad he is excited and happy about it....He even initiate to accompany me to the hospital for blood test on monday, but I told him it will take a few hours for the blood test result to be out so I can go alone. He has course on that day, so not possible for him to take leave. I'm okie actually, since he had initiated to come with me, I'm already glad with his initiative.
I hope god can continue to bless me with good result on monday...PRAY HARD!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Low Test Sensitivity
Different tests detect hCG at different levels, from 20MIU to 100MIU or more. 20MIU will display a faint line when hCG levels are at 20 MIU, while less sensitive tests will display a negative result. At 50 MIU levels, a 20 MIU test will show a stronger color band while a 50 MIU test will show a very faint band.
Can I put my mind at ease? My tests are strong lines in all my HPT strips from 11dpt onwards...
Ref: http://www.babyhopes.com/articles/faintline.html
LH and HCG are identical twins except for the hat!
This is what I found from http://www.peeonastick.com/opkhpt.html
OPK's detect LH (luteinizing hormone) which is the hormone associated with ovulation. Pregnancy tests detect hCG, the hormone associated with pregnancy. LH and hCG are, at a molecular level, nearly identical. hCG has a beta subunit, meaning it has an extra little "doodad." To use a stupid but easy to understand example, LH and hCG are identical twins, except that hCG wears a funny hat.
So an OPK will turn positive when it detects either of the "identical twins"-- ovulation or pregnancy hormone.
OPK's detect LH (luteinizing hormone) which is the hormone associated with ovulation. Pregnancy tests detect hCG, the hormone associated with pregnancy. LH and hCG are, at a molecular level, nearly identical. hCG has a beta subunit, meaning it has an extra little "doodad." To use a stupid but easy to understand example, LH and hCG are identical twins, except that hCG wears a funny hat.
An OPK tests only for the part of the molecule that
LH and hCG have in common (the "face" or "body" of the identical
twins.) Essentially an OPK is saying:
So an OPK will turn positive when it detects either of the "identical twins"-- ovulation or pregnancy hormone.
The reverse is not true, however,
because an HPT tests for the part of the molecule that is unique to hCG
(the "hat.") So an HPT would say:
Therefore, a pregnancy test will turn positive
only in the presence of hCG, whereas an OPK will turn positive
in the presence of hCG or LH.
Now, it's important to note that OPK's work
differently than HPT's. A pregnancy test will develop 2 lines
only if hCG (pregnancy hormone) is detected. Thus, "a line is a
line" when determining a positive HPT. OPK's work differently. An OPK has a
"control" line and a "test" line, just like an HPT. Unlike an HPT, however, the
mere presence of a "test" line does not mean the test is
positive. The test line must be as dark as, or darker than, the control
line to be a positive result (meaning that a surge was
detected, rather than the ordinary amount of LH usually found in your urine
every day.)
This means that there is already some ambiguity
involved in reading an OPK's results. Sometimes the line is almost as dark as
the control line, but perhaps not quite as dark. Sometimes only the
edge turns dark, or the top half of the line is darker than the bottom.
Additionally, OPK's are not as sensitive as a lot of
HPT's are. This means that, if pregnant, you are likely to get a positive HPT
earlier than you would get a positive OPK.
Day 13 Post Transfer
BBT Today: 36.69 degree celcius
BBT Yesterday: 36.68 degree celcius
Getting more tired over the night and I slept very deeply...not much of symptoms though...
Tested with two different strips, one is pregnancy test strip and the other is OPK strip. Both giving me very obvious positive line, especially the OPK. Wondering how OPK can pick up HCG level, thought it is meant for LH reading?
I hope this result can last till monday for the blood test and confirmed...
This morning, dear suddenly picked up my hpt record book and looked at it...I was a little shocked cos I meant to give him a surprise. He didn't mention anything abt the positive line on the HPTs, wonder he knew what's that about? He just say why I paste all those on the notebook, but I didn't reply him...I think he knew what's going on...
Anyway, I intend to officially annouce it to him on monday if I passed the blood test.
BBT Yesterday: 36.68 degree celcius
Getting more tired over the night and I slept very deeply...not much of symptoms though...
Tested with two different strips, one is pregnancy test strip and the other is OPK strip. Both giving me very obvious positive line, especially the OPK. Wondering how OPK can pick up HCG level, thought it is meant for LH reading?
I hope this result can last till monday for the blood test and confirmed...
This morning, dear suddenly picked up my hpt record book and looked at it...I was a little shocked cos I meant to give him a surprise. He didn't mention anything abt the positive line on the HPTs, wonder he knew what's that about? He just say why I paste all those on the notebook, but I didn't reply him...I think he knew what's going on...
Anyway, I intend to officially annouce it to him on monday if I passed the blood test.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Day 12 Post Transfer
BBT Today: 36.68 degree
BBT Yesterday: 36.87 degree
Still don't understand why my BBT can shift up and down, but I think as long as it is above my normal temperature, i'm safe. Actually I do not know what is my coverline temperature as I have never plot my temperature graph since my IVF started. It is only since past few days after the ET then I started monitoring my temperature.
Tested with a pregnancy test strip again, praying hard that the line won't fade. Luckily it shows pretty well... =) I hope my results can last till monday which is the blood test day. I'm still having phorbia to test with the ClearBlue kit which is suppose to pick up a higher level of HCG. But i'm glad I could have the chance to see double line on a pregnancy strip tested on myself...it's a wonderful experience for me. If I could see it on the ClearBlue kit telling me i'm "Pregnant", it will even be marvellous. But I think nothing compares to the blood test which the nurse or doctor would announce to me that it's "Positive" =)) Hope all these would come true soon!!! PRAY HARD!
No symptom detected since 11 dpt, breast not sore and no cramps also. This really put me into worries again, no symptoms and how I know if I was really pregnant? Its only showing on the hpt strip...but I do read that some people with twins has no symptoms on them too....Interesting!
Read some post online, there is people who tested multiple positive on HPT strips but blood test came back to be negative...really hope such thing don't happen on me. It's a terrible feeling...What the doctors or nurse would say is that it could be a chemical pregnancy, miscarrige could happen anytime before blood test. "TOUCH WOOD" ! That is why they don't encourage to test before the blood test.
BBT Yesterday: 36.87 degree
Still don't understand why my BBT can shift up and down, but I think as long as it is above my normal temperature, i'm safe. Actually I do not know what is my coverline temperature as I have never plot my temperature graph since my IVF started. It is only since past few days after the ET then I started monitoring my temperature.
Tested with a pregnancy test strip again, praying hard that the line won't fade. Luckily it shows pretty well... =) I hope my results can last till monday which is the blood test day. I'm still having phorbia to test with the ClearBlue kit which is suppose to pick up a higher level of HCG. But i'm glad I could have the chance to see double line on a pregnancy strip tested on myself...it's a wonderful experience for me. If I could see it on the ClearBlue kit telling me i'm "Pregnant", it will even be marvellous. But I think nothing compares to the blood test which the nurse or doctor would announce to me that it's "Positive" =)) Hope all these would come true soon!!! PRAY HARD!
No symptom detected since 11 dpt, breast not sore and no cramps also. This really put me into worries again, no symptoms and how I know if I was really pregnant? Its only showing on the hpt strip...but I do read that some people with twins has no symptoms on them too....Interesting!
Read some post online, there is people who tested multiple positive on HPT strips but blood test came back to be negative...really hope such thing don't happen on me. It's a terrible feeling...What the doctors or nurse would say is that it could be a chemical pregnancy, miscarrige could happen anytime before blood test. "TOUCH WOOD" ! That is why they don't encourage to test before the blood test.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Pregnancy Strip vs ClearBlue Digital
Decided to test with a more sensitive HPT before the blood test revealed my result. Today I have grabbed a box of ClearBlue Digital, waiting for use either on saturday or sunday morning. This is to mentally prepare myself for any worst to come so that it will not affect my mood on monday for my semester test.
Have checked online on the sensitivity of the HPT strip. The pregnancy test strip which i'm using, is detecting HCG of 20 mIU. The lowest it can detect, the earlier you will see a positive on the strip. Based on mine, I think it is still building up and it is less than 20 mIU because it still look faint. For ClearBlue Digital, it can detect up to 50 mIU which is double of normal HPT strip. Definitely it is going to be true if tested positive with the ClearBlue...but still cannot take it too lightly because chances of chemical pregnancy is possible.
Now I have a little phorbia of using ClearBlue Digital because I have been testing with pregnancy test strips and i'm afraid my HCG level not high enough for ClearBlue to pick up the result and then it shows "Not Pregnant"...
Have checked online on the sensitivity of the HPT strip. The pregnancy test strip which i'm using, is detecting HCG of 20 mIU. The lowest it can detect, the earlier you will see a positive on the strip. Based on mine, I think it is still building up and it is less than 20 mIU because it still look faint. For ClearBlue Digital, it can detect up to 50 mIU which is double of normal HPT strip. Definitely it is going to be true if tested positive with the ClearBlue...but still cannot take it too lightly because chances of chemical pregnancy is possible.
Now I have a little phorbia of using ClearBlue Digital because I have been testing with pregnancy test strips and i'm afraid my HCG level not high enough for ClearBlue to pick up the result and then it shows "Not Pregnant"...
Day 11 dpt - line is getting darker!
Woke up slightly earlier today, but trying to lye on the bed without moving much afraid it will somehow affect my BBT reading later. I think I will sleep better when Dear is not home...opps!
Took my temperature today, and it sow up to 36.86 degree compared to yesterday which is 36.68 degree. A Big jump in temperature! Since the temperature looks good today, I shall test a HPT and see how's my progress. This time I choose to use the more sensitive one and dip in my urine for about 10 seconds and took it out for reading after 5 minutes. The line gets darker than yesterday...not sure if the comparison is accurate cos the line from yesterday HPT has lighten. But definitely I remembered the line yesterday is not as dark as today.
Getting a little bit excited! If the result on monday is BFN, don't know if I could take it a not. After looking at the positive sign on the HPT, I couldn't get myself mentally prepared for the worst to come... Not much symptom since yesterday though...but after taking the HPT I have a slight cramp at my tummy and after that it is gone...
Yesterday, just learnt that my groupmate has passed her 3 months pregnancy...I'm so happy for her! And at that moment i'm thinking if I could have the chance to share a good news to them after 3 months? She asked me if i'm planning for a child and I told her I'm also planning..."grinning" =)
I could tell from her eyes, she knew I'm hidding from her something as she kept looking at my tummy and I knew I look a bit bloated now. =P
Now I'm wondering if testing before the blood test on a HPT is accurate? Could it be the utrogestan pills I am taking which give a false positive on a HPT?
Haiz...so much worry...
Oh yah...notice something today, my appetite was not good. Usually I can easily finish 1 slice of bread but today trying hard to swallow it down my throat...don't know is it to do with the late supper at Mc Donald yesterday night after school.
I intend to keep this secret from Dear first because the line is still not strong to prove i'm pregnant and if it is going to be true I plan to give him a surprise... =))
Took my temperature today, and it sow up to 36.86 degree compared to yesterday which is 36.68 degree. A Big jump in temperature! Since the temperature looks good today, I shall test a HPT and see how's my progress. This time I choose to use the more sensitive one and dip in my urine for about 10 seconds and took it out for reading after 5 minutes. The line gets darker than yesterday...not sure if the comparison is accurate cos the line from yesterday HPT has lighten. But definitely I remembered the line yesterday is not as dark as today.
Getting a little bit excited! If the result on monday is BFN, don't know if I could take it a not. After looking at the positive sign on the HPT, I couldn't get myself mentally prepared for the worst to come... Not much symptom since yesterday though...but after taking the HPT I have a slight cramp at my tummy and after that it is gone...
Yesterday, just learnt that my groupmate has passed her 3 months pregnancy...I'm so happy for her! And at that moment i'm thinking if I could have the chance to share a good news to them after 3 months? She asked me if i'm planning for a child and I told her I'm also planning..."grinning" =)
I could tell from her eyes, she knew I'm hidding from her something as she kept looking at my tummy and I knew I look a bit bloated now. =P
Now I'm wondering if testing before the blood test on a HPT is accurate? Could it be the utrogestan pills I am taking which give a false positive on a HPT?
Haiz...so much worry...
Oh yah...notice something today, my appetite was not good. Usually I can easily finish 1 slice of bread but today trying hard to swallow it down my throat...don't know is it to do with the late supper at Mc Donald yesterday night after school.
I intend to keep this secret from Dear first because the line is still not strong to prove i'm pregnant and if it is going to be true I plan to give him a surprise... =))
Monday, July 2, 2012
Embryo development stages
Here is what I found from internet:
For 3 Days Transfer:
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
5dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
7dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT
For a 5 Days Transfer:
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
5dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT
For 3 Days Transfer:
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
5dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
7dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT
For a 5 Days Transfer:
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
5dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells &
fetal cells
6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on
HPT
Day 10 Post Transfer- Any chance for a (+) ?
I had a good night sleep yesterday and it lasted me till this morning without waking up for toliet break. At 8am, my alarm rang as it is time for me to insert the utrogestan vaginally. Today my temperature went up to 36.68 again...really strange, up and down.
I have read that it should be almost time for HCG to show sign on pregnancy strip, 11 dpt should be more obvious. I am curious to know, so I decided to pick one of my pregnancy strip and give it a try. No harm, cos I have lots of the strip which will be wasted if I don't use them. Anyway, I am ready to accept if its negative.
My urine this time was concentrated, good time to test. I immerse the strip in the urine and let it be. The instruction shows to pull out the strip after 5 seconds, but I'm thinking that HCG might not be strong now so I decided to immerse inside the bottle of urine long enough to detect any HCG.
After about 5 minutes, I checked on the strip and found a very faint positive line. I was a bit shocked but still I don't want to believe it is going to be real positive. The line shows up could be due to the immerse of the strip in the urine for too long. So I decided to try on a second strip and this strip might not be as sensitive as the first because the expiry date is closer and the instruction says to immerse for 10 seconds before leaving it on the table for the positive line to appear if there's any in 5 mins.
I went back to check after 5 minutes and it has a very very faint line but not as clear as the first. So I don't know if there is still chance for my HCG to be higher in the next few days. I have read online that there could be chances of chemical pregnancy which gives a false positive on the strip. So i'm not sure if any positive shown is real, that is why I am not as excited yet. Maybe I shall test again on wednesday and see if the line gets stronger but I don't want to pin so much hope yet.
I have read that it should be almost time for HCG to show sign on pregnancy strip, 11 dpt should be more obvious. I am curious to know, so I decided to pick one of my pregnancy strip and give it a try. No harm, cos I have lots of the strip which will be wasted if I don't use them. Anyway, I am ready to accept if its negative.
My urine this time was concentrated, good time to test. I immerse the strip in the urine and let it be. The instruction shows to pull out the strip after 5 seconds, but I'm thinking that HCG might not be strong now so I decided to immerse inside the bottle of urine long enough to detect any HCG.
After about 5 minutes, I checked on the strip and found a very faint positive line. I was a bit shocked but still I don't want to believe it is going to be real positive. The line shows up could be due to the immerse of the strip in the urine for too long. So I decided to try on a second strip and this strip might not be as sensitive as the first because the expiry date is closer and the instruction says to immerse for 10 seconds before leaving it on the table for the positive line to appear if there's any in 5 mins.
I went back to check after 5 minutes and it has a very very faint line but not as clear as the first. So I don't know if there is still chance for my HCG to be higher in the next few days. I have read online that there could be chances of chemical pregnancy which gives a false positive on the strip. So i'm not sure if any positive shown is real, that is why I am not as excited yet. Maybe I shall test again on wednesday and see if the line gets stronger but I don't want to pin so much hope yet.
Day 9 Post Transfer - No Hope...
This morning came to be a little surprise to me, my temperature reading actually drops at my first take. Couldn't believe my eyes, took a second time and it went even lower. At this point, I'm thinking if there is anything wrong with my thermometer which gave me three different reading at almost the same time... Anyway I believe my temperature has dropped. Not a good sign....a bit dissapointed but I'm mentally prepared for the failure.
Yesterday, starts to feel a little menses cramp and thought it was a good sign, as I have read that menses cramp could mean BFP also. But I don't want to take it too lightly. Yestersay night I felt so tired and had a good night sleep. Don't know why sudden I feel so drained out, could it be due to the emotional rack I have gone through while watching the sad movies related to doggy?
During my sleep last night, I had a terrible night mare! First time I dreamt my 'Big Aunt' came and its very heavy till it soaked the pad red. I have never had such heavy menses before. Well, it really scare me off...I must be too stress to have such dream.
My mood today is steady and calm,not as tired as yesterday. In the car, I told my hubby how I feel about our IVF this time. I told him maybe I should give up for second try. It is too much of emotional stress for me and the fact that both of us are having some fertility problem. If I was to try the 2nd time, I got to sacrifice my work for another 2 weeks which could affect my work progress also. Not sure If my boss is so generous to release me so frequent till I get my BFP? Moreover, I do not have any frozen embryos which means I'm going to frequent the hospital for follow-ups and puregon jabs for the first two weeks.
Just read a blog of a girl who has finally conceived through her 2nd cycle and it really tempt me...
Today I have been trying to convince myself to accept the failure, trying to focus on other stuffs and plans in the future. I knew I couldn't take cold drinks for these 2 weeks, but today I released myself and just drank a glass of ice mocha with ice-cream without guilt. I knew there's not much hope for me, why put so much effort? But on the other side of my mind, I told myself if result not out yet I still have chance.
After back home from a day out with my furry kid, I felt a little menses cramp. Don't know if it is a good or bad sign. But I choose to take it lightly and think it could be a false symptom. Other than that, my XXX drive is really high since yesterday...Urgh!!! I regret not doing it before my ET, I shouldn't have worried that it will affect my treatment before ET. This could be one of the side effect from the utrogestan pressies I'm taking vaginally. How can I endure till the result is out? I have read online, It is best not to orgasm which could affect the result due to contraction of the uterus...haiz...How I really wish days could pass soon so I can resume my normal routine but...still I would like to enjoy my holiday slowly....HOW? =(
Today for the 1st time since ET I actually lost count on the days of progress. I'm more relaxed than the past few days...just want to quickly get this over and done.
Yesterday, starts to feel a little menses cramp and thought it was a good sign, as I have read that menses cramp could mean BFP also. But I don't want to take it too lightly. Yestersay night I felt so tired and had a good night sleep. Don't know why sudden I feel so drained out, could it be due to the emotional rack I have gone through while watching the sad movies related to doggy?
During my sleep last night, I had a terrible night mare! First time I dreamt my 'Big Aunt' came and its very heavy till it soaked the pad red. I have never had such heavy menses before. Well, it really scare me off...I must be too stress to have such dream.
My mood today is steady and calm,not as tired as yesterday. In the car, I told my hubby how I feel about our IVF this time. I told him maybe I should give up for second try. It is too much of emotional stress for me and the fact that both of us are having some fertility problem. If I was to try the 2nd time, I got to sacrifice my work for another 2 weeks which could affect my work progress also. Not sure If my boss is so generous to release me so frequent till I get my BFP? Moreover, I do not have any frozen embryos which means I'm going to frequent the hospital for follow-ups and puregon jabs for the first two weeks.
Just read a blog of a girl who has finally conceived through her 2nd cycle and it really tempt me...
Today I have been trying to convince myself to accept the failure, trying to focus on other stuffs and plans in the future. I knew I couldn't take cold drinks for these 2 weeks, but today I released myself and just drank a glass of ice mocha with ice-cream without guilt. I knew there's not much hope for me, why put so much effort? But on the other side of my mind, I told myself if result not out yet I still have chance.
After back home from a day out with my furry kid, I felt a little menses cramp. Don't know if it is a good or bad sign. But I choose to take it lightly and think it could be a false symptom. Other than that, my XXX drive is really high since yesterday...Urgh!!! I regret not doing it before my ET, I shouldn't have worried that it will affect my treatment before ET. This could be one of the side effect from the utrogestan pressies I'm taking vaginally. How can I endure till the result is out? I have read online, It is best not to orgasm which could affect the result due to contraction of the uterus...haiz...How I really wish days could pass soon so I can resume my normal routine but...still I would like to enjoy my holiday slowly....HOW? =(
Today for the 1st time since ET I actually lost count on the days of progress. I'm more relaxed than the past few days...just want to quickly get this over and done.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
A Little Light of Hope
God has taken away my hope and dream yesterday...and it made me sad the whole day. After watching a sad movie, it worsen my mood. Cried out the whole day and I'm mentally prepared for the worst to come.
In my heart, I have accepted it as a failure. It made me think through the whole day, what should I do to face the reality...Finally, I'm able to tell myself to accept the truth. If it is going to be a failure, I will continue with 2nd attempt of IVF. But hopefully Dr Lau and myself learnt from the 1st cycle, and it will be better for the next try. Before I kick start the 2nd attempt of IVF, hope we can try naturally too.
This morning to my surprise, my temperature rose to 36.77 degree at the usual 8 am. I woke up earlier today and realised it was not time to measure yet, so out of curiosity I try measuring my temperature 1st, and it was 36.68 degree initially. This was the same as previous days before the drop. Today, I had my highest temperature ever since the past week. I'm not sure if I have done it accurately because I have already waken up earlier before I took the 2nd time at 8am.
Now God has given me back something....which is a little HOPE by increasing my temperature today- a good sign for conceiving. Though there is a little light, but still I don't want to pin my hope too high. I believe some of my body reaction is due to the medication. Today I still don't feel much symptom and my bloatedness has gone since yesterday, same for my breast soreness.
In my heart, I have accepted it as a failure. It made me think through the whole day, what should I do to face the reality...Finally, I'm able to tell myself to accept the truth. If it is going to be a failure, I will continue with 2nd attempt of IVF. But hopefully Dr Lau and myself learnt from the 1st cycle, and it will be better for the next try. Before I kick start the 2nd attempt of IVF, hope we can try naturally too.
This morning to my surprise, my temperature rose to 36.77 degree at the usual 8 am. I woke up earlier today and realised it was not time to measure yet, so out of curiosity I try measuring my temperature 1st, and it was 36.68 degree initially. This was the same as previous days before the drop. Today, I had my highest temperature ever since the past week. I'm not sure if I have done it accurately because I have already waken up earlier before I took the 2nd time at 8am.
Now God has given me back something....which is a little HOPE by increasing my temperature today- a good sign for conceiving. Though there is a little light, but still I don't want to pin my hope too high. I believe some of my body reaction is due to the medication. Today I still don't feel much symptom and my bloatedness has gone since yesterday, same for my breast soreness.
Friday, June 29, 2012
星守之犬
Whenever I watched movie related to dog, the end story will always be sad... And it will defintely put me in emotional mode.
Out of boredom, I choose to watch "星守之犬". Its about how loyal this shiba inu is and he guard against his master even when he is dead. This doggy was brought into the family by this old man's daughter. When she grown up, she starts to push responsibility to her dad for taking care of the dog. From then on, this dog follows this old man wherever he goes.
His wife choose to divorce him and left with his daughter. He was left with "Happi", the dog's name. This old man lost his job and he has no money to stay in his house. He travels round with Happi in his old van and spend whatever he has left. One fine day, when he was buying food at a convenient store, he saw a little boy who was dressed shabbily and dirty stealing a bun. He stopped him and pay for his food. This little boy follows this old man for a while but when this old man says he wants to send him home, the next day he steals all his money and left.
This old man was left with nothing, and he was not sad but worried for this boy. He continued his journey with Happi to wherever he can. Now that he was left with no money, when Happi was sick he has to sell off his own properties in exchange for money to treat Happi.
Happi was well again, and he continues his journey with his master. This old man knew that his engine oil is coming to an end and he needs to find a place where he and Happi can stay till the end. He didn't even have money to buy medication for himself for controlling his heart problem. He drove Happi to a deep forest and decided to stay there for good. They managed to find food which was packed by others for BBQ, he set up a firecamp near to his van and had his fill.
It's getting colder and colder and snowing heavily. Old man was suffering in pain and Happi has been finding food for his owner and bring it back to him. Till one day, old man knew his day is coming to an end, and asked Happi not to bring food to him anymore. Happi saw how weak his master is and he quickly ran out of forest and found food for him, Old man was happy to see Happi for the last time and he released him and asked him to go find somewhere he wants to stay.
Old man passed away, Happi continued to stay by his side and fetch food for him and place by his side. There's one day, he saw a family doing BBQ and it brings back his memory of his own family who brought him up. He went nearer to them, and they turned very hostile to him and threw a brick at him, It hits on his head and he bled. He quickly turned back to the forest and went back to his master with a crippled leg and blood still flowing down from his head. He rested by his master's side and he passed away too...
Everytime after watching such story, I will tell myself to treasure Mickey even more... I will make sure he can lead a happy and memorable life. I cried and hold Mickey when I watched the part when Happi was bullied.
Dogs are so loyal and they are human's best friend and companion!
Out of boredom, I choose to watch "星守之犬". Its about how loyal this shiba inu is and he guard against his master even when he is dead. This doggy was brought into the family by this old man's daughter. When she grown up, she starts to push responsibility to her dad for taking care of the dog. From then on, this dog follows this old man wherever he goes.
His wife choose to divorce him and left with his daughter. He was left with "Happi", the dog's name. This old man lost his job and he has no money to stay in his house. He travels round with Happi in his old van and spend whatever he has left. One fine day, when he was buying food at a convenient store, he saw a little boy who was dressed shabbily and dirty stealing a bun. He stopped him and pay for his food. This little boy follows this old man for a while but when this old man says he wants to send him home, the next day he steals all his money and left.
This old man was left with nothing, and he was not sad but worried for this boy. He continued his journey with Happi to wherever he can. Now that he was left with no money, when Happi was sick he has to sell off his own properties in exchange for money to treat Happi.
Happi was well again, and he continues his journey with his master. This old man knew that his engine oil is coming to an end and he needs to find a place where he and Happi can stay till the end. He didn't even have money to buy medication for himself for controlling his heart problem. He drove Happi to a deep forest and decided to stay there for good. They managed to find food which was packed by others for BBQ, he set up a firecamp near to his van and had his fill.
It's getting colder and colder and snowing heavily. Old man was suffering in pain and Happi has been finding food for his owner and bring it back to him. Till one day, old man knew his day is coming to an end, and asked Happi not to bring food to him anymore. Happi saw how weak his master is and he quickly ran out of forest and found food for him, Old man was happy to see Happi for the last time and he released him and asked him to go find somewhere he wants to stay.
Old man passed away, Happi continued to stay by his side and fetch food for him and place by his side. There's one day, he saw a family doing BBQ and it brings back his memory of his own family who brought him up. He went nearer to them, and they turned very hostile to him and threw a brick at him, It hits on his head and he bled. He quickly turned back to the forest and went back to his master with a crippled leg and blood still flowing down from his head. He rested by his master's side and he passed away too...
Everytime after watching such story, I will tell myself to treasure Mickey even more... I will make sure he can lead a happy and memorable life. I cried and hold Mickey when I watched the part when Happi was bullied.
Dogs are so loyal and they are human's best friend and companion!
Day 7 post transfer
Sad...another dip in temperature today, and it dip by 0.9 degree celcius to 36.6 which is way much lower than day 5pt (36.64). Realised my breasts not as sore and size have reduced and no cramps since this morning. Is this going to be a bad sign indicating my success rate is low and not possible to be pregnant?
Have read in internet, but there is no evidence that shows dip in temperature twice is good or bad signs. Well, cross my fingers...if my temperature didn't pick up tomorrow, I can confirm this cycle is a failed one. =(
Well...I'm in deep thoughts just now thinking what I should do If my IVF fails this time...
Should I continue with a 2nd time or believe in what the fortune tellers have told us that it is unlikely we can have children and give up? Really don't know... If what the fortune tellers told us is true, then I will never get any children no matter how hard I try. SO it will be a waste of effort, time and $$ on treatments. We have already wasted a lot of $$ and still no results.... really devastating...
Having a child is so tough for us...I know it is not important for Dear as he thinks this is all fated. But it took me so long to realise what he said is true...its fated we couldn't have children....*Cry*
I have lost hope....
Have read in internet, but there is no evidence that shows dip in temperature twice is good or bad signs. Well, cross my fingers...if my temperature didn't pick up tomorrow, I can confirm this cycle is a failed one. =(
Well...I'm in deep thoughts just now thinking what I should do If my IVF fails this time...
Should I continue with a 2nd time or believe in what the fortune tellers have told us that it is unlikely we can have children and give up? Really don't know... If what the fortune tellers told us is true, then I will never get any children no matter how hard I try. SO it will be a waste of effort, time and $$ on treatments. We have already wasted a lot of $$ and still no results.... really devastating...
Having a child is so tough for us...I know it is not important for Dear as he thinks this is all fated. But it took me so long to realise what he said is true...its fated we couldn't have children....*Cry*
I have lost hope....
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Day 5 Post Transfer
Starts to lost hope since yesterday as I don't get to feel much symptoms
after wednesday evening. During my journey to school, while I was standing in
the MRT, I started to feel strong twinge of pain on my left side of abdomen.
While I feel the pain, in my heart was smiling....cos it could be a good sign. It lasted quite long, till my lab practical lesson almost ended.
We are told to do lung test for each of us and it requires one to exert large force to do the test. I told my group mates and lecturer that I am exempted from doing strenuous exercise and this is considered so. I felt so pai seh as I don't know what to explain to the rest but there is one of my group mate who understands my situation.
On the next day, Thursday morning, I felt a little pulling sensation from the middle of abdomen along the navel and after that it eased. And for the rest of the day, I don't get to feel anything. It's really demoralising. =(
Today, I woke up expecting my temperature to rise but it dipped. From the internet, I remembered that 5 DPT is the day where embies starts to implant into uterus so I should be expecting some cramps or an increased in my temperature if it is successful. But I could be wrong, so what's the symptom about on the 3 DPT?
Well, I have started to feel a little depressed and tears over little things. Lots of things run wild in my mind. Even when I'm watching some documentary show about those young entrepreneurs doing some charity, I feel sad for those kids in unfortunate countries and start to tear again. I know I'm a cry baby...this can't be help. I have been emotional once again, wonder is it due to the progestrone pills I'm having.
Now while I'm typing this blog, I could feel a little cramp on my abdomen for a few sec. Hope it's a good sign though... =)
These few days, I have been revising for my test today. Hope it will not affect my implantation process...I'm not putting in 100% effort for this revision as I don't want to over stress myself also. Well as what my sister told me, what's important is my IVF to be successful. If test has failed can retest, but to re-do the IVF treatment again is another big sum of money and great pain. Not WOrth!
Now I have poured everything out to this blog, I feel much lighter now. I won't want to think so much about the progress of my IVF now and let natural take its course. Hope I can do it, its easy to say than do!
I know GOD will make the best decision for me!
Ok time for me to revise for test now!
We are told to do lung test for each of us and it requires one to exert large force to do the test. I told my group mates and lecturer that I am exempted from doing strenuous exercise and this is considered so. I felt so pai seh as I don't know what to explain to the rest but there is one of my group mate who understands my situation.
On the next day, Thursday morning, I felt a little pulling sensation from the middle of abdomen along the navel and after that it eased. And for the rest of the day, I don't get to feel anything. It's really demoralising. =(
Today, I woke up expecting my temperature to rise but it dipped. From the internet, I remembered that 5 DPT is the day where embies starts to implant into uterus so I should be expecting some cramps or an increased in my temperature if it is successful. But I could be wrong, so what's the symptom about on the 3 DPT?
Well, I have started to feel a little depressed and tears over little things. Lots of things run wild in my mind. Even when I'm watching some documentary show about those young entrepreneurs doing some charity, I feel sad for those kids in unfortunate countries and start to tear again. I know I'm a cry baby...this can't be help. I have been emotional once again, wonder is it due to the progestrone pills I'm having.
Now while I'm typing this blog, I could feel a little cramp on my abdomen for a few sec. Hope it's a good sign though... =)
These few days, I have been revising for my test today. Hope it will not affect my implantation process...I'm not putting in 100% effort for this revision as I don't want to over stress myself also. Well as what my sister told me, what's important is my IVF to be successful. If test has failed can retest, but to re-do the IVF treatment again is another big sum of money and great pain. Not WOrth!
Now I have poured everything out to this blog, I feel much lighter now. I won't want to think so much about the progress of my IVF now and let natural take its course. Hope I can do it, its easy to say than do!
I know GOD will make the best decision for me!
Ok time for me to revise for test now!
Saturday, June 23, 2012
2 Weeks Waiting
The most agony part of the process is the 2 weeks waiting for the result. Have yet to experience any symptom and today is the 1st day past egg tranfer. The 2 embryos which are fertilized are of grade 4 which are considered good, grade 5 is the best. The rest of the 10 eggs didn't managed to fertilized and they are considered bad qualities. Quite dissapointing but luckily there are enough of good embryos for transfer and I think i'm lucky.
I'm on utrogestran to support the womb lining. I have read that it helps thicken the walls of the womb so that the chances for the embies to implant on the wall would be higher.
Hope I can fulfill my wish and dreams this time! Praying hard...
Oh Yup, Dear's MRI scan shows that he is fine and no growth found in brain. So even Dr Lau couldn't explain why his Prolactin level is high. It could be due to his irregular sleep hours which cause this to raise. As usual, Dr Matthew Lau was so anxious to report us the result after he enter the theathre. Dear joke about him, he must be his god dad otherwise he won't be so concern about him...haa
I'm on utrogestran to support the womb lining. I have read that it helps thicken the walls of the womb so that the chances for the embies to implant on the wall would be higher.
Hope I can fulfill my wish and dreams this time! Praying hard...
Oh Yup, Dear's MRI scan shows that he is fine and no growth found in brain. So even Dr Lau couldn't explain why his Prolactin level is high. It could be due to his irregular sleep hours which cause this to raise. As usual, Dr Matthew Lau was so anxious to report us the result after he enter the theathre. Dear joke about him, he must be his god dad otherwise he won't be so concern about him...haa
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Egg Retrival Day
Early morning, we both has a mission ahead. Dear has an appointment for MRI and me for the Egg Retrival procedure.
When I was at KKIVF, nurse briefed me on the process I will be going through and also to ensure that I am following their instructions before the surgery starts.
When I was lying down on the bed in the theatre room, Dr Matthew Lau came in not long after. As usual he is still so concerned about my husband and his 1st question when he saw me was to ask if my hus has booked for the MRI scan. Really makes me wonder how it would benefit him by following up on my hus case or he is really a caring doctor? I hope he belongs to the latter and I feel comfortable with him being my gynae.
After the oxygen mask was on me, the next moment I found myself awake on the resting lounge bed. At that moment I am wondering how's my eggs? Not long after, a senior nurse came in and pass me a cup of milo, after that I am ready to go home. I have slept there for 3 hours and I can't seem to remember anything. The nurse updated me my progress, they have retrieved 12 eggs in total but not sure if the eggs are of good or bad qualities.
I'm scheduled on friday for the embryo transfer. I hope all eggs are good and they are able to fertilized well.
Excited!!!
When I was at KKIVF, nurse briefed me on the process I will be going through and also to ensure that I am following their instructions before the surgery starts.
When I was lying down on the bed in the theatre room, Dr Matthew Lau came in not long after. As usual he is still so concerned about my husband and his 1st question when he saw me was to ask if my hus has booked for the MRI scan. Really makes me wonder how it would benefit him by following up on my hus case or he is really a caring doctor? I hope he belongs to the latter and I feel comfortable with him being my gynae.
After the oxygen mask was on me, the next moment I found myself awake on the resting lounge bed. At that moment I am wondering how's my eggs? Not long after, a senior nurse came in and pass me a cup of milo, after that I am ready to go home. I have slept there for 3 hours and I can't seem to remember anything. The nurse updated me my progress, they have retrieved 12 eggs in total but not sure if the eggs are of good or bad qualities.
I'm scheduled on friday for the embryo transfer. I hope all eggs are good and they are able to fertilized well.
Excited!!!
Monday, June 18, 2012
Day 10 - Pregnyl Injection
Was overly worried if I have ovulated. Saw some mucus discharge while wipping off with some toliet tissue yesterday. I have read online, and found some others having the same encounter as me and they tested positive for ovulation.
This morning while I was at KKH for progesterone blood test, I highlighted to the nurse about my concern and they did another test for me just to test the LH level to see if I have ovulated.
Luckily, the result is negative and I have not ovulate. Phew...was so worried and paranoid, afraid that my plan will not be successful this time.
Just went for pregnyl injection at their 24 hr O&G clinic, this is to start the ovulation so that the eggs are ready for collection on wednesday.
This morning while I was at KKH for progesterone blood test, I highlighted to the nurse about my concern and they did another test for me just to test the LH level to see if I have ovulated.
Luckily, the result is negative and I have not ovulate. Phew...was so worried and paranoid, afraid that my plan will not be successful this time.
Just went for pregnyl injection at their 24 hr O&G clinic, this is to start the ovulation so that the eggs are ready for collection on wednesday.
Friday, June 15, 2012
Day 7, 2nd Ultrasound Review
More follicles were found and the largest detected was 14.5mm. Today I get to meet Dr Matthew Lau, and was surprised I'm meeting him today. He looked serious when he asked me about Dear's condition and he even asked if he has decided to go for the MRI scan. After his question, I knew he was very concern over his condition cos he says it would affect his health and should be treated fast. Out of so many doctors or gynaes I have seen, he is the most caring doctor I ever met. He could easily brush aside this patient cos it is not going to affect any of his fertility treatment anyway. From the 1st time when he called to follow-up with my hus and now his concern with his condition, I truely believe I am lucky to have him as my gynae and I am satisfied with his service.
He mentioned to me that it is best for Dear to go for the scan to rule out the cause of the problem for his prolactin level. Most likely could be tumor but it could also be due to stress which cause this hormone to be high. If it is tumor at least it is detected earlier and treatment can be given to prevent it from getting worse. I agree with him, and he even initiate to book the appt for dear knowing that he will not do it fast as he has already been dragging for too long. So he suggested him to do the scan at KKH, if there is anything found he got to go TTSH for further follow-up.
He mentioned that my result was good, he aimed for me to have 3 matured follicles with about 16mm size. By wednesday I'm able to proceed with Egg Retrieval and from that day onwards I will be on 2 weeks Hospital Leave. Egg Transfer will be 2 days from wednesday which is Friday or Saturday.
Now I'm feeling lots of twitching pains in my tummy....eggs grow grow grow!!
Hope everything goes well! =)
He mentioned to me that it is best for Dear to go for the scan to rule out the cause of the problem for his prolactin level. Most likely could be tumor but it could also be due to stress which cause this hormone to be high. If it is tumor at least it is detected earlier and treatment can be given to prevent it from getting worse. I agree with him, and he even initiate to book the appt for dear knowing that he will not do it fast as he has already been dragging for too long. So he suggested him to do the scan at KKH, if there is anything found he got to go TTSH for further follow-up.
He mentioned that my result was good, he aimed for me to have 3 matured follicles with about 16mm size. By wednesday I'm able to proceed with Egg Retrieval and from that day onwards I will be on 2 weeks Hospital Leave. Egg Transfer will be 2 days from wednesday which is Friday or Saturday.
Now I'm feeling lots of twitching pains in my tummy....eggs grow grow grow!!
Hope everything goes well! =)
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Day 1 Review after 3 days of Puregon
Went for my 1st review after the puregon jabs. 10 follicles were found in both side of my ovaries and 2 of them are of larger sizes of 8.5mm and 9mm which means it will trigger my ovulation anytime.
I'm given another type of jab to stop the ovulation from happening. So from tomorrow onwards, I will be taking two jabs till thurs before I go for my second review on Friday.
I'm given another type of jab to stop the ovulation from happening. So from tomorrow onwards, I will be taking two jabs till thurs before I go for my second review on Friday.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Day 2 of Puregon Jab/ Day 3 Menses
These two days, I felt really lethargic and I even knock out into deep sleep with dreams,
I wonder if it is the side effect of Puregon jabs. I read online, every individual has different symptoms from the jabs and tiredness is one of them. It happened when I'm not working or just relaxing around. Had some mild cramps at the abdominal side every now and then, but not as bad as Day 1. The feeling seems to get lesser during Day 2. Wonder if my follicles are increasing enough with just 150 IU of puregon per day. Didn't had much side effects after all.
Excited to know the results on Tuesday during the scan.
I wonder if it is the side effect of Puregon jabs. I read online, every individual has different symptoms from the jabs and tiredness is one of them. It happened when I'm not working or just relaxing around. Had some mild cramps at the abdominal side every now and then, but not as bad as Day 1. The feeling seems to get lesser during Day 2. Wonder if my follicles are increasing enough with just 150 IU of puregon per day. Didn't had much side effects after all.
Excited to know the results on Tuesday during the scan.
Friday, June 8, 2012
1st Ultrasound and Puregon Jab
Today is my Day 2 of menses, had my 1st ultrasound scan and result was not bad. My lining is fine and there were 2 follicles found. o.0
I was taught by the nurse on how to administer myself with the Puregon. It was much easier than I thought, and there is not much pain. The after feeling is just like ant bites for a few mins and after that it subsides. After her demonstration, I did once for myself today.
The dosage for the 1st 3 days: 150 IU/Day
The next follow-up will be 3 days later for ultrasound scan for the numbers of follicles.
The equipments for Puregon Jab.
I was taught by the nurse on how to administer myself with the Puregon. It was much easier than I thought, and there is not much pain. The after feeling is just like ant bites for a few mins and after that it subsides. After her demonstration, I did once for myself today.
The dosage for the 1st 3 days: 150 IU/Day
The next follow-up will be 3 days later for ultrasound scan for the numbers of follicles.
Tomorrow is the day...Start of IVF treatment
Full flow of menses this morning which is considered day 1 of menses, and immediately I called the hospital and
informed the nurse. I waited patiently for the nurse to return call to me to
inform me on the next move.
Finally about 3.30pm, she called me to inform me that I can go down to KKH tomorrow to do ultrasound scan and at the same time to start my daily injection. I'm suppose to inject Elonva which could last me for the next 7 days (Newly Invented), but she told me the stocks have not arrive and asked me if I wanted to stay put with Puregon which I need to inject myself every day. If I decide to wait for Elonva Jabs, then the only choice is to postpone my treatment which I find it ridiculous.
My colleague feels that I should stay put with the Puregon Jabs as it has been used in the market for so long, and nothing could go wrong. After listening to her, I feel what she says is quite true.
I'm excited for the start of my treatment!
Finally about 3.30pm, she called me to inform me that I can go down to KKH tomorrow to do ultrasound scan and at the same time to start my daily injection. I'm suppose to inject Elonva which could last me for the next 7 days (Newly Invented), but she told me the stocks have not arrive and asked me if I wanted to stay put with Puregon which I need to inject myself every day. If I decide to wait for Elonva Jabs, then the only choice is to postpone my treatment which I find it ridiculous.
My colleague feels that I should stay put with the Puregon Jabs as it has been used in the market for so long, and nothing could go wrong. After listening to her, I feel what she says is quite true.
I'm excited for the start of my treatment!
Monday, June 4, 2012
Exciting week! Waiting for IVF to start
This week is going to be an exciting week...and it is also first ever that I am hoping for my menses to come soon.
Once my mense starts, I should be starting with the 1st part of the injection which is meant to be an antagonist. Luckily, what I am going through now is a new type of injection which could last me for about a week without a need to inject on myself. But after that, I have to continue to inject myself with puregon which I am most fearful of. This will last for another 5 - 7 days before I could proceed to do ER.
Once my mense starts, I should be starting with the 1st part of the injection which is meant to be an antagonist. Luckily, what I am going through now is a new type of injection which could last me for about a week without a need to inject on myself. But after that, I have to continue to inject myself with puregon which I am most fearful of. This will last for another 5 - 7 days before I could proceed to do ER.
Thursday, May 24, 2012
IVF treatment starting in 2 weeks time
Finally the moment I,m waiting for is here very soon. Next month I will be going through the IVF treatment. It is a tough decision made by me to go through the treatment this year as I am currently taking up a specialist dip course in SP for a year. I have just gone through the course for a month and it seems like almost a year. But the thought of my dream coming true very soon makes me move on with life.
I hope my treatment will be a success but still I do not want to pin too much hope.
May god bless and fulfill my wish.
May god bless and fulfill my wish.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Our trip this year...to Bangkok
Oh yeah! We are going for a short trip to Bangkok soon. This trip could be my only trip this year as I am going to get very busy with my work and family planning. And this is suppose to help me relax and enjoy before my suffering comes.
This trip is going to be interesting, because we are going with two other couples who is Kate and Aim with their hubbies. This is our first time going on a trip with friends and collegues and they are locals from Thai so they could be a good tour guides for us... We are going to shop and eat till drop!
The next mission I'm going there is to visit the Erawan Shrine. I have heard how great the god is and how he helped so many people round the world. I intend to ask for his blessing for my family plan and career this year. Hope he can give me his blessing and fulfill my wishes.
I have read what is the correct procedure to pray to him, and here it is below:
first of all , you just arrive infront gate of four faces god
and walk in , turn to your right hand side go straight flower shop
buy for one set of 4 pieces of little flower garlands, one candle and one plastic bag of 12隻香
after that tear out plastic bag and lighten up 12隻香 at lightened stall
and then go to the first face that is facing main gate
to kneel down and begining 祈禱 (平安)---身體健康
after that put 3sticks of 香 infront of first face (left hand side floor stand)
after that put one flower garland infront of first face
and then go to second face that is from left to right clockwise
to kneel down and begining 祈禱 (事業)--生意 學業
after that put 3sticks of 香 infront of second face (left hand side floor stand)
after that put one flower garland infront of second face
and then go to third face (感情) ----愛情 ,家庭
and then go to fouth face (財富) ---錢財, 黃金, 股票
for one candle , if you want to have 錢財
before worship the fourth face , go to lightend stall to lightening your candle
and put infront (left hand side floor of candle stand) and then
to kneel down and beginning 祈禱 infront of fourth face (財富) ---錢財, 黃金, 股票
after that put 3sticks of 香 infront of fourth face (left hand side floor stand)
and last flower garland in front of fourth face
that is finished
before you leave , go to first face side again 合掌 拜三下 and then leave
There is other people who post this after the procedure:
Do NOT get scammed by flower/joss stick sellers outside the premises. They are pushy and try to sell you in a big package at 2k baht.
The same stuff can be bought inside at 60 or 80 baht or even less if you look like a local.
Wear long pants and short sleeve shirt or t shirt at least.
Don’t be like some singaporeans i saw, wearing shorts and singlet jerseys.
Pray with your heart.
This is really a good reference for me as I am totally lost on how to pray to him. My 1st time visit to him and it could be only once every other year, so I must do it correctly this time I go so I could receive his blessing! =D
This trip is going to be interesting, because we are going with two other couples who is Kate and Aim with their hubbies. This is our first time going on a trip with friends and collegues and they are locals from Thai so they could be a good tour guides for us... We are going to shop and eat till drop!
The next mission I'm going there is to visit the Erawan Shrine. I have heard how great the god is and how he helped so many people round the world. I intend to ask for his blessing for my family plan and career this year. Hope he can give me his blessing and fulfill my wishes.
I have read what is the correct procedure to pray to him, and here it is below:
first of all , you just arrive infront gate of four faces god
and walk in , turn to your right hand side go straight flower shop
buy for one set of 4 pieces of little flower garlands, one candle and one plastic bag of 12隻香
after that tear out plastic bag and lighten up 12隻香 at lightened stall
and then go to the first face that is facing main gate
to kneel down and begining 祈禱 (平安)---身體健康
after that put 3sticks of 香 infront of first face (left hand side floor stand)
after that put one flower garland infront of first face
and then go to second face that is from left to right clockwise
to kneel down and begining 祈禱 (事業)--生意 學業
after that put 3sticks of 香 infront of second face (left hand side floor stand)
after that put one flower garland infront of second face
and then go to third face (感情) ----愛情 ,家庭
and then go to fouth face (財富) ---錢財, 黃金, 股票
for one candle , if you want to have 錢財
before worship the fourth face , go to lightend stall to lightening your candle
and put infront (left hand side floor of candle stand) and then
to kneel down and beginning 祈禱 infront of fourth face (財富) ---錢財, 黃金, 股票
after that put 3sticks of 香 infront of fourth face (left hand side floor stand)
and last flower garland in front of fourth face
that is finished
before you leave , go to first face side again 合掌 拜三下 and then leave
There is other people who post this after the procedure:
Do NOT get scammed by flower/joss stick sellers outside the premises. They are pushy and try to sell you in a big package at 2k baht.
The same stuff can be bought inside at 60 or 80 baht or even less if you look like a local.
Wear long pants and short sleeve shirt or t shirt at least.
Don’t be like some singaporeans i saw, wearing shorts and singlet jerseys.
Pray with your heart.
This is really a good reference for me as I am totally lost on how to pray to him. My 1st time visit to him and it could be only once every other year, so I must do it correctly this time I go so I could receive his blessing! =D
Monday, March 5, 2012
Ultrasound Sonohysterography
As usual, KKH is famous for the long waiting time despite the scheduled appointment time. I was told to changed to the robe for the procedure and waited for the doctor to come. I was told that the doctor was having a meeting and will be late. Well, luckily I took the whole day off from work otherwise I will be waiting impatiently there. Doctor came and explained to me about the procedure and it sounds a bit scary though.
"What is Sonohysterography (Ultrasound of the Uterus)?
Ultrasound imaging, also called ultrasound scanning or sonography, involves exposing part of the body to high-frequency sound waves to produce pictures of the inside of the body. Ultrasound examinations do not use ionizing radiation (as used in x-rays). Because ultrasound images are captured in real-time, they can show the structure and movement of the body's internal organs, as well as blood flowing through blood vessels
How is the procedure performed?
Transvaginal Tranducer (Probe)
A baseline transvaginal ultrasound procedure is usually performed first to view the endometrium, or the lining of the uterus, including its thickness and any associated ovarian abnormality.
Transvaginal ultrasound is performed very much like a gynecologic exam and involves the insertion of the transducer into the vagina after the patient empties her bladder. The tip of the transducer is smaller than the standard speculum used when performing a Pap test. A protective cover is placed over the transducer, lubricated with a small amount of gel, and then inserted into the vagina. Only two to three inches of the transducer end are inserted into the vagina. The images are obtained from different orientations to get the best views of the uterus and ovaries. Transvaginal ultrasound is usually performed with the patient lying on her back, possibly with her feet in stirrups similar to a gynecologic exam. ."
I was told by the doctor that I will experience some cramping and spotting after the scan for about 2 days. But everything seems normal after the procedure and nothing happens to me.
During the scan, I heard the doctor says my tubes look normal, but all the nurses and the doctor look so serious while doing the scan especially when they are trying to capture the pictures of my womb. Hope that doesn't determine the no. of problems found in my womb. =x
"What is Sonohysterography (Ultrasound of the Uterus)?
Ultrasound imaging, also called ultrasound scanning or sonography, involves exposing part of the body to high-frequency sound waves to produce pictures of the inside of the body. Ultrasound examinations do not use ionizing radiation (as used in x-rays). Because ultrasound images are captured in real-time, they can show the structure and movement of the body's internal organs, as well as blood flowing through blood vessels
How is the procedure performed?
Transvaginal Tranducer (Probe)
A baseline transvaginal ultrasound procedure is usually performed first to view the endometrium, or the lining of the uterus, including its thickness and any associated ovarian abnormality.
Transvaginal ultrasound is performed very much like a gynecologic exam and involves the insertion of the transducer into the vagina after the patient empties her bladder. The tip of the transducer is smaller than the standard speculum used when performing a Pap test. A protective cover is placed over the transducer, lubricated with a small amount of gel, and then inserted into the vagina. Only two to three inches of the transducer end are inserted into the vagina. The images are obtained from different orientations to get the best views of the uterus and ovaries. Transvaginal ultrasound is usually performed with the patient lying on her back, possibly with her feet in stirrups similar to a gynecologic exam. ."
I was told by the doctor that I will experience some cramping and spotting after the scan for about 2 days. But everything seems normal after the procedure and nothing happens to me.
During the scan, I heard the doctor says my tubes look normal, but all the nurses and the doctor look so serious while doing the scan especially when they are trying to capture the pictures of my womb. Hope that doesn't determine the no. of problems found in my womb. =x
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Follow-up with Dr Matthew Lau
We are referred to Dr Matthew Lau for our IVF treatment. Dear hus has done a prolactin test 2 months ago and the result was not optimistic. It remains at the same level. Dr Matthew Lau, suggested us to do sperm freezing to retain the quality of the sperm. We are still considering about it against the costs it will incur on us. Dr Lau wanted me to do an ultra sound before he could book a month for my IVF. The process sound abit scary, as he told me my uterus will be filled up with water. I hope the experience is not as bad as I thought.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Fortune Telling- Believe or Not?
Out of desperate, I came to believe in fortune telling. Happened that we went for one and was told that our baby luck is down. I was so skeptical about what he said, as I thought he could be just doing some sales talk out from his prediction.
After discussing with hubby, we decided to go for a second opinion from Jenny the fortune teller whom we used to consult. She was helping us to view the luck for 2012 and at the same time I get her to predict my baby luck. Her words are not optimistic either, all she says was 'NO' your luck is really bad and leave things to fate and try not to ask for more. I was so sad, and I asked what if I really wants a child. She says if you want kid, you will lost your hubby. I knew I can only take her remarks with a pinch of salt. At that moment of time, I really gave up hope and drop the idea of going for IVF. All because of what the fortune tellers told us.
After some serious thoughts, I think I shouldn't listen to what those fortune tellers had told us. If I really follow what they said, then their prediction will come true and we will live without children throughout our life. And that would be very sad for us.
In the end, I decide to proceed with our IVF plan. I knew it will not be easy on myself, but I am willing to try. Even though I could not get the best doctor for myself, but I do hope God can give me his blessing for giving me a child this time.
After discussing with hubby, we decided to go for a second opinion from Jenny the fortune teller whom we used to consult. She was helping us to view the luck for 2012 and at the same time I get her to predict my baby luck. Her words are not optimistic either, all she says was 'NO' your luck is really bad and leave things to fate and try not to ask for more. I was so sad, and I asked what if I really wants a child. She says if you want kid, you will lost your hubby. I knew I can only take her remarks with a pinch of salt. At that moment of time, I really gave up hope and drop the idea of going for IVF. All because of what the fortune tellers told us.
After some serious thoughts, I think I shouldn't listen to what those fortune tellers had told us. If I really follow what they said, then their prediction will come true and we will live without children throughout our life. And that would be very sad for us.
In the end, I decide to proceed with our IVF plan. I knew it will not be easy on myself, but I am willing to try. Even though I could not get the best doctor for myself, but I do hope God can give me his blessing for giving me a child this time.
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